Something Fell

[infanttyrone]

I've been having these weird sort of 'fits' over the last few months. The first couple times it happened, I just assumed that it was brought on by the various psychoactive drugs my doctors had prescribed. But as each of them failed and I stopped taking them, the fits continued. They mostly happen as I'm waking up: sometimes in the morning, but

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[santaprudencia]

I have out of body type of experiences a lot, but in my case it's because of the anxiety disorder -- I get so freaked out and wound up with worry that I can't remember anything for pretty good stretches when it turns into panic attack. I'm no shrink, but it could be you're having a variation on a panic problem. Also, any meds you try can takes ages to leave your body, so it could be your chemistry's just readjusting. Rest assured though, you are far too young for dementia.

[infanttyrone]

I hope your right, and that it's residual drug traces. The other options are all too creepy (the onset of dementia) or implausible (some kind of soul-swapping.) My logical mind knows it's got to be some kind of variation on anxiety or a new bizarre kind of deja vu, and a psychologist would be able to tell me more than a spiritualist. But to be totally honest, you know what it feels like? Like there was a junction in my youth, probably in the early teen years, where I could have gone one of two seperate ways, and now that Me and this Me are swapping bodies.

[santaprudencia]

Well, honey, sounds like the makings of a novel. But seriously, if it gets any worse, get yourself to a county hospital ER and get checked out if you don't have insurance. Even if it's panic attacks there are non-drug ways of dealing with those (cognitive behavioral therapy, acupuncture, etc), and you may want to guzzle extra water to get the whatnot out of your system.

[infanttyrone]

It's pleasantly similar to something I would make up, actually. I feel I'm uniquely suited to figuring out what the actual problem is and solving it, since I always make up jive like this and inflict it on my imagined characters. Except for them it usually is something eerie and metaphysical. For me in real life, it's probably just left-over drugs and/or the onset of Lewy Body Dementia (a cherished family heirloom.)

[dorothy_parka]

don't get all Donnie Darko on us. :)

Pollyanna Strikes Again

[infanttyrone]

But that would be pretty keen, huh? I've got to say, if I do have some horrible disorder, at least it's a weird one with some interesting symptoms, instead of it just being "Oh, owch, I feel crummby. Hey, now I'm dead."

Re: Pollyanna Strikes Again

[dorothy_parka]

It _would_ be pretty keen. When I first was diagnosed with my neurological disorder, my mother said, "why couldn't you get something that Oliver Sacks would be interested in?" weird and interesting is always better.