You're not alone, have you read my latest entries?davew2theoodwarAugust 2 2007, 02:00:17 UTC
Sam, I'm not exactly happy either. My uncle Jim died the other night and I don't even know what to think about it. I'm at a state of mind where I am disgusted with how broken my family is, with everybody fighting and hating each other and not getting themselves the help they need. I have family problems up the ass that have driven me to get help from counseling and if it gets any worse, probably medication. I had to have a talk with my sisters about what's going on in my life and why I'm so damn paranoid about everything. I've never felt so needing of the friends I have. I don't blame you about the single thing either, I just got dumped. I don't regret a single thing about it though because I've repaired and remained best friends with Kaylin. But no matter what, until I ever find that happiness and spark I had, it's going to take a long time for me to cope with it. It's not easy especially when it's your first real relationship. It fills me with jealousy and I got pissed knowing a lot of my friends are going well with their boyfriends and girlfriends. But you just gotta hang in and do some suffering to gain strength. It doesn't come to mind at first but it will when you give yourself time to think about it and discuss it with people you trust. I wish you the best and that things will turn out back to normal or better soon. Take care.
Dave
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