Dreams.
I've been having some dreams about Lauren lately. Well, last night atleast, but, it just seems like I've been having them every night. But, before I start telling you about these dreams, maybe I should tell you the story of Lauren and I. My side of the story, atleast.
She moved her in third grade, and lived right down the street from me. Besides from Stephanie, and Phillip, which were a few years older than me, Lauren, and her older brother D.J., where the closest to my age. Of course, me and D.J. hung out the most, I guess because we were boys. But, me and Lauren also hung out because we were the same age, and in the same grade. I guess you could say we became best friends. We always went over to eachother's houses after school, and always hung out. So, that went on for a about two years, then the summer before fifth grade came along. Lauren and D.J.'s birthdays were close together, so they used to have joint birthday parties. That year, I went to it, and both of them were rude to me. My mom saw it, and told me to get into the car, and we would go home. We did.
Fifth grade came around, and I guess me and Lauren were O.K, but, honestly, she still made fun of me. It's like, she had to make me feel bad about myself, to make her feel good about herself. One day, we got into a huge fight, and it was terrible from then on. I mean, I totally secluded myself one semester in the 6th grade. I sat all alone at lunch for a whole entire semester. We had, "assigned" seats, so, once I sat alone,I sat alone for a whole semester.
Then seventh grade roled around, and I gained my popularity back. I started hanging out with the cool kids, and doing stuff with them. But, middle school was just a joke. Never really had any friends, but anyways, High school came around, and I started hanging out with some older kids, some of them had been really good best friends, then junior year came around. Me and Lauren had a class together at the end of the day, and she started offering to take me home. She did, we started hanging out, and becoming best friend's again. The thing was, she really didn't like me hanging out with anyone else. And, she was always lying. About small things, or stupid things.
So, finally before Christmas of last year, she got pregnant. But, she ended up marrying her ex-boyfriend that was rich, basically for the money. I was suppossed to be in the wedding, and so was one of our friend Justine. Come to find out, Lauren told one of the secretary's at school that Justine was too much of a druggie to pay for her shoes in the wedding. I told Justine this after I heard it, and Justine confessed that her and Lauren were the ones that called the cops on Amber's birthday hotel party. I had suspected Lauren of it, but she denied it, and made me feel like shit when I accussed her of it. So, after I found this out, I cancelled by tux two days before the wedding, and, yeah. Me and Lauren hasn't talked since then after I told her off on the phone.
A few days later she let me pass her when we were driving. Then she tried to call me. Anyways, that's pretty much it. I mean, I feel bad about what I did, but, I just felt hurt, and betrayed by her, too. I don't know, I loved her, still kind of do. We always had so much fun together, and such, but, yeah..I just, don't know what to do.
P.S. Missed my shift at work today, and got in a accident on the way there! Don't worry, my car, no anyone's elses wasn't damaged, the road was just slick, and my car fish tailed some, lol.
She moved her in third grade, and lived right down the street from me. Besides from Stephanie, and Phillip, which were a few years older than me, Lauren, and her older brother D.J., where the closest to my age. Of course, me and D.J. hung out the most, I guess because we were boys. But, me and Lauren also hung out because we were the same age, and in the same grade. I guess you could say we became best friends. We always went over to eachother's houses after school, and always hung out. So, that went on for a about two years, then the summer before fifth grade came along. Lauren and D.J.'s birthdays were close together, so they used to have joint birthday parties. That year, I went to it, and both of them were rude to me. My mom saw it, and told me to get into the car, and we would go home. We did.
Fifth grade came around, and I guess me and Lauren were O.K, but, honestly, she still made fun of me. It's like, she had to make me feel bad about myself, to make her feel good about herself. One day, we got into a huge fight, and it was terrible from then on. I mean, I totally secluded myself one semester in the 6th grade. I sat all alone at lunch for a whole entire semester. We had, "assigned" seats, so, once I sat alone,I sat alone for a whole semester.
Then seventh grade roled around, and I gained my popularity back. I started hanging out with the cool kids, and doing stuff with them. But, middle school was just a joke. Never really had any friends, but anyways, High school came around, and I started hanging out with some older kids, some of them had been really good best friends, then junior year came around. Me and Lauren had a class together at the end of the day, and she started offering to take me home. She did, we started hanging out, and becoming best friend's again. The thing was, she really didn't like me hanging out with anyone else. And, she was always lying. About small things, or stupid things.
So, finally before Christmas of last year, she got pregnant. But, she ended up marrying her ex-boyfriend that was rich, basically for the money. I was suppossed to be in the wedding, and so was one of our friend Justine. Come to find out, Lauren told one of the secretary's at school that Justine was too much of a druggie to pay for her shoes in the wedding. I told Justine this after I heard it, and Justine confessed that her and Lauren were the ones that called the cops on Amber's birthday hotel party. I had suspected Lauren of it, but she denied it, and made me feel like shit when I accussed her of it. So, after I found this out, I cancelled by tux two days before the wedding, and, yeah. Me and Lauren hasn't talked since then after I told her off on the phone.
A few days later she let me pass her when we were driving. Then she tried to call me. Anyways, that's pretty much it. I mean, I feel bad about what I did, but, I just felt hurt, and betrayed by her, too. I don't know, I loved her, still kind of do. We always had so much fun together, and such, but, yeah..I just, don't know what to do.
P.S. Missed my shift at work today, and got in a accident on the way there! Don't worry, my car, no anyone's elses wasn't damaged, the road was just slick, and my car fish tailed some, lol.