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i dont say "i'm sorry." enough.. i take people for granted and fight the wrong fights; sometimes. but that's only half true. im morbid in a melancholy way. my whole life has been a double negative. i'm afraid to die because im selfish. i dont want to leave this world, but not for myself, but for the world i havent saved. i've always had this fanboy obsession with super heroes. heroes in general. even brightly colored ponies that save the world from eternal night to see another bright shining day.
this is my downfall..im still a child that grew up too fast without ever learning how to grow. i get stagnant, change makes me happy, but i don't know how to grasp the dawning of a new day. 'carpie diem' is hard for me to fathom.
EVERYONE GETS SAD
but im not everyone, and im not sad..im just weak from all this pain i've gathered. but why is my pain so crippling? there are people that have gone through so much more than i have, and yet, they wake each morning with a smile. it's something i need to try one day.
i wake up every morning with a yearning for everything. for everyone, but only of what they think, and how they perceive this world. i get so stuck sometimes, and cant ever set myself free.
when i die, i don't want these things soaring through my being. i want to be free.
but im chained.
this is my downfall..im still a child that grew up too fast without ever learning how to grow. i get stagnant, change makes me happy, but i don't know how to grasp the dawning of a new day. 'carpie diem' is hard for me to fathom.
EVERYONE GETS SAD
but im not everyone, and im not sad..im just weak from all this pain i've gathered. but why is my pain so crippling? there are people that have gone through so much more than i have, and yet, they wake each morning with a smile. it's something i need to try one day.
i wake up every morning with a yearning for everything. for everyone, but only of what they think, and how they perceive this world. i get so stuck sometimes, and cant ever set myself free.
when i die, i don't want these things soaring through my being. i want to be free.
but im chained.