Honestly tell me that it's over..
For the past couple phone conversations I've had with Ryan they haven't lasted more than ten minutes..Five minutes, at that. I can't stand this anymore. I seriosley have been in such a bad mood lately revolving around him. Yesterday I didn't even talk to him, and then today he's talking about how he needs to get rid of his dog, Bear, because he's rowdy, and he's like..
"What happens when I bring over someone I like, or a boyfriend or something?"
Oh yeah, if that didn't break my heart. God forbid someone not like you because of your dogs, god forbid you date someone shallow. I looked passed your stupid ass dogs, and I still like you. God, why can't you just like me? Why don't you like me? Seriosley, I don't see why he doesn't, maybe it's the age thing, maybe it's something else, but no matter what I do, I can't stop thinking about him. I'm going crazy..
Onto other less depressing news..Actually, it's almost as depressing. I took down all my posters, and everything Lindsay in my room today, along with the other "decorations" in my room. My room is so, dead now. I want to repaint it, or something, I'm just changing as a person, trying to change myself for the better.
Maybe that's a sign that I need to give up on Ryan? Maybe he's one of those things that I need to change in my life to make myself happier? I don't know..Why can't God just give me a sign? I've been asking him for help alot lately, but, he doesn't seem to answer. God, what should I do with my life, God, what should I be? I want to change my life SOOO bad, but at the same time, I don't want to do anything.
GOD. What should I do?
"What happens when I bring over someone I like, or a boyfriend or something?"
Oh yeah, if that didn't break my heart. God forbid someone not like you because of your dogs, god forbid you date someone shallow. I looked passed your stupid ass dogs, and I still like you. God, why can't you just like me? Why don't you like me? Seriosley, I don't see why he doesn't, maybe it's the age thing, maybe it's something else, but no matter what I do, I can't stop thinking about him. I'm going crazy..
Onto other less depressing news..Actually, it's almost as depressing. I took down all my posters, and everything Lindsay in my room today, along with the other "decorations" in my room. My room is so, dead now. I want to repaint it, or something, I'm just changing as a person, trying to change myself for the better.
Maybe that's a sign that I need to give up on Ryan? Maybe he's one of those things that I need to change in my life to make myself happier? I don't know..Why can't God just give me a sign? I've been asking him for help alot lately, but, he doesn't seem to answer. God, what should I do with my life, God, what should I be? I want to change my life SOOO bad, but at the same time, I don't want to do anything.
GOD. What should I do?