You make me wanna..LA LA..
It's seven in the morning, I haven't gone to bed yet, and I'm a little "La La" off of some nyquil. I have a horrendous cough that almost kills me sometimes, and rips out my lungs. Smoking helps it, as sad as that sounds.
I created a Louisville Mojo account for the Angels. It seems as though lately we're becoming a little closer. Chazzie's birthday is this weekend, he wants to do coke which depresses me, but, it doesn't matter what I say, he's still gonna do it. I mean, even if he did do it, he might lie to me about it. Just like he would have lied to Kylie this weekend about doing "X"..I was gonna do it to, just because I wanted to feel that control, or whatever. Him, and Atticus rolled. Atticus annoys the fuck out me sometimes. With him incessent singing, and such. I mean, the boy can sing, just the sound of his damned voice annoys me.
But, what pissed me off about Chaz and Atticus rolling was that, since they both did it, and I didn't, Atticus was all like, "Chaz, Chaz!". Chaz is my fucking little sister, you ugly ogre, back the fuck up off him. I don't care if you all are fucked up on the same drug, don't fucking try and take him away from me. I don't know why that makes me angry, I know nothing could ever take either Kylie or Chaz away, I just hate people that try to intervene between us. WE'RE THE FUCKING ANGELS FOR A GOD DAMNED REASON.
That makes me think though..Why are we the Angels? Kylie and Chaz are B.F.F, but, why did they chose me? Why am I so damned special. I'll never know, I just hope nothing ever get between us.
They do make me sad sometimes. Sometimes I feel like the left out one, since they are B.F.F's, but, yeah. They also make me sad because they dislike themselves so much. Chaz can't wait to get his surgery. I don't want him too, he's fine the way he is. He thinks it's going to help him get a boyfriend. Whatever, fuck those, they don't make you any happier, they just take you away from the people that were there before him.
Kylie gets hurt, and stepped on by Chaz alot. He says things he shouldn't, and that aren't true. I just wish for once she'd fucking stand up for herself, and quit being all sweet, and polite to him. Fighting with someone makes the relationship stronger, but, all she ever does is just pushes things under the rug, so that he'll be happy, and they won't fight. For God's sake, tell him how you feel. And she always does it in that same voice...
I wanna be able to talk to them about our problems we have, without Chaz getting so fucking upset, and all. Stop fucking holding those God damned grudges! Fight with us, then get it over with. Holding grudges isn't going to do shit, just make us not want to talk to you again about our problems.
But, then again, he's only a bitch when he's fucked up. This weekend is his birthday, and I wonder how that's gonna play out. It's going to be Chaz's way, or the high way..Oh, wait, that's all the time when he's fucked up.
Whatever, I love them, they're the only real family I have right now.
I created a Louisville Mojo account for the Angels. It seems as though lately we're becoming a little closer. Chazzie's birthday is this weekend, he wants to do coke which depresses me, but, it doesn't matter what I say, he's still gonna do it. I mean, even if he did do it, he might lie to me about it. Just like he would have lied to Kylie this weekend about doing "X"..I was gonna do it to, just because I wanted to feel that control, or whatever. Him, and Atticus rolled. Atticus annoys the fuck out me sometimes. With him incessent singing, and such. I mean, the boy can sing, just the sound of his damned voice annoys me.
But, what pissed me off about Chaz and Atticus rolling was that, since they both did it, and I didn't, Atticus was all like, "Chaz, Chaz!". Chaz is my fucking little sister, you ugly ogre, back the fuck up off him. I don't care if you all are fucked up on the same drug, don't fucking try and take him away from me. I don't know why that makes me angry, I know nothing could ever take either Kylie or Chaz away, I just hate people that try to intervene between us. WE'RE THE FUCKING ANGELS FOR A GOD DAMNED REASON.
That makes me think though..Why are we the Angels? Kylie and Chaz are B.F.F, but, why did they chose me? Why am I so damned special. I'll never know, I just hope nothing ever get between us.
They do make me sad sometimes. Sometimes I feel like the left out one, since they are B.F.F's, but, yeah. They also make me sad because they dislike themselves so much. Chaz can't wait to get his surgery. I don't want him too, he's fine the way he is. He thinks it's going to help him get a boyfriend. Whatever, fuck those, they don't make you any happier, they just take you away from the people that were there before him.
Kylie gets hurt, and stepped on by Chaz alot. He says things he shouldn't, and that aren't true. I just wish for once she'd fucking stand up for herself, and quit being all sweet, and polite to him. Fighting with someone makes the relationship stronger, but, all she ever does is just pushes things under the rug, so that he'll be happy, and they won't fight. For God's sake, tell him how you feel. And she always does it in that same voice...
I wanna be able to talk to them about our problems we have, without Chaz getting so fucking upset, and all. Stop fucking holding those God damned grudges! Fight with us, then get it over with. Holding grudges isn't going to do shit, just make us not want to talk to you again about our problems.
But, then again, he's only a bitch when he's fucked up. This weekend is his birthday, and I wonder how that's gonna play out. It's going to be Chaz's way, or the high way..Oh, wait, that's all the time when he's fucked up.
Whatever, I love them, they're the only real family I have right now.