sometimes i just feel like giving up.
ahhh i hate nick hes such a dick. hes been makin me do shit since he came home and im so fucking sick of it that i just want to kill him. no not really but nonetheless((did u know that that was one word..i think thats cool))...but im just so bleh lately.i hate it when i have to go up to the hospital and just sit there and watch my dad suffer..it sucks monkey balls. ----side track----- molly just started chasing her tail...its so fun to watch....anyway ----back to me venting----
i have wanted to cry so many times since i dont know ive just wanted to..but i always want to cry and have alex with me..but whenever im with him i just feel so happy that i can't nor need to then. my mom has done NOTHING and im being serious NOTHING but yell at me for the last well actually since about november sometime. i just sit there now. no matter what i say or do its always my fault and im always wrong. other people prolly feel the same way..it just irks me. she treats my friends better than she treats me...and she favors my brother over me. ya i know its sad but true. i feel stupid i hate it when i vent ..cuz then it just makes my problems feel so unimportant. which i guess they are ...but anyway..AND to TOP it ALL off....my dad almost died on friday. if the doctor would have had to make another incision he would have bled to death...AND he will probably be in the hospital over christmas.
my wall is being rebuilt
i have wanted to cry so many times since i dont know ive just wanted to..but i always want to cry and have alex with me..but whenever im with him i just feel so happy that i can't nor need to then. my mom has done NOTHING and im being serious NOTHING but yell at me for the last well actually since about november sometime. i just sit there now. no matter what i say or do its always my fault and im always wrong. other people prolly feel the same way..it just irks me. she treats my friends better than she treats me...and she favors my brother over me. ya i know its sad but true. i feel stupid i hate it when i vent ..cuz then it just makes my problems feel so unimportant. which i guess they are ...but anyway..AND to TOP it ALL off....my dad almost died on friday. if the doctor would have had to make another incision he would have bled to death...AND he will probably be in the hospital over christmas.
my wall is being rebuilt