it made you look down the barrel of a vaccum

[inertiakissed]

every high certainly has a very deep low. the idea was basic.  move home for a bit until the new place is ready next week. first night home, shit went south. truck died. no idea why. dead. out of commission. luckily i was able to use my mom's car. {shes amazing.} however, its only temporary. i have to have my truck running by the end of this week. which means money to spend. and time to do it will be needed. blarrgh. no idea when i'll have time to do it. work is uber nuts right now. boss is on vacation again. im at the wheel. i kind of want to drive into a tree. just to cause a little chaos. why so serious? i wish i had the means to just go. i feel so disconnected from everyone. isnt dubya suppose to give out another check? i could use one right about now. i felt proud of myself today at work. [im all over the place today] my throat hurts. i want last night, every night...period. better yet, i want conclusions on sour situations. thatd be better. yea. pretty sure.

'if i sleep through the morning - when i forget every moment - the weekend is over'