Long time no write
Wow. It's been ages since I've updated here. Sorry I keep going MIA. I've been lurking around, but just haven't had much to say, I guess. Feeling pretty disconnected all-around, which is likely due to RL stresses and writer's block issues more than anything else.
♥ The buying a house thing has been a pain in the ass. My grandpa is buying it due to his credit and other stuff, while my mom and I are actually paying mortgage payments and getting it in his will. All our side of stuff has been fine. We were supposed to close on 11/28, and I moved out of my apartment on 11/26 and into a spare bedroom at my grandpa's for what was supposed to be a week until we started moving into new house. Only, closing got pushed off. NINE TIMES it has been pushed off. My mom and I both used up most our PTO time at work for moving based on the dates they kept giving us, only to have dates pushed back more. Right now, I'm still living out of a suitcase and a box while we've been told it's for sure 100% closing tomorrow. We even terminated once last week due to all the stress and worry we've had to deal with, but the seller asked us to reconsider the next day. Turns out there's legal stuff from the bank who bought the foreclosure we're buying versus the original bank that sold it to them. Now that we know that, we understand the issues, but we've had three weeks with no answer and just a lot of worry and wasting time off work we could have not taken.
♥ I got a cold during the weekend I moved back in November. Seemed to go away but the cough lingered. This last weekend, it hit me hard again and I finally went to the doctor yesterday. I've got walking pneumonia, relatively severe since I let it go for weeks, and I've now had to use the last of my PTO time to take off the rest of this week so I can take the four prescriptions I was given and hope I stop feeling like death warmed over before Christmas, at least.
♥ Due to the moving, I wasn't able to do Christmas cards, which I love doing. I also wasn't able to request any, which I love doing. I received two, so that was nice, but it still hasn't felt much like Christmas with the stress of moving limbo and sickness. We didn't even get a tree up until last weekend because we had no idea when we'd be moving. Now, we're just doing Christmas at the grandpa's house like usual and hoping signing happens tomorrow so we can work on moving between Monday and NY's Day.
♥ Work is work. Lots of negativity around there and unhappy folks. I try to focus on the job I don't loathe and my paychecks, even if I'm doing twice the work for less money because I lost shift dif going from evenings to day shift.
♥ My sister turns 19 today. I feel very very old since I remember taking her around in her stroller and people assuming she was mine back when I was 16. I'll be turning 36 in February, which isn't that old but I just feel it or whatever. Lots of limbo-ish thoughts lately, I suppose.
♥ I'm still reading fandom stuff. Following a few holiday exchanges. Reading Hermione fic and Kirk/McCoy and Arthur/Eames and J2 AU and Merlin/Arthur AU and random stuff people rec that interest me. Also enjoying the daily dose of advent stuff I got through DreamSpinners, since I try each book even if it's not something that'd normally appeal to me.
♥ I miss writing. Right now, I can't even drabble, fandom or original. I know it's just mental RL stuff, but the lack of fandom writing is something I've missed all year. I try and I just can't get past the blocks. Doesn't even feel like burn out or anything, just a lack of being able to write. October marked my 12th anniversary of writing fanfic and yet I don't think I've written more than one or two things this year at all outside of original RPing at the_metroplex.
♥ heather makes me want to learn how to knit. She's always talking about it and posting pretty stuff and I love her very muchly even if she makes me want to do creative stuff I always suck at when I try.
♥ TV-wise, I'm hardly following anything these days that aren't random reality shows. My attention span sucks, I guess. I've been following Top Chef, of course, and I hated this season of ANTM (ugh all around) but I loved the NTM for Britain and Australia and New Zealand so whatev. I'm watching Storage Wars and Storage Wars Texas and enjoy those a lot despite figuring they're all pre-scripted and set up. I'd LOVE to have lunch with Barry and see his random collections of stuff. I've been watching Hoarders, which is a show that makes me conflicted because I find the psychological aspect of the real and true hoarders to be interesting and disturbing, but I also get frustrated by the people who enable a lot of it or the ones who claim to be hoarders but, to me, simply seem like lazy people who don't want to do housework. It's like there's a different between the truly mental ones and the ones who are 'I had kids and just stopped cleaning'. I mean WTF?
♥ Haven't seen many movies lately. Don't even rent stuff these days. I did buy a special edition Woodstock DVD as a Christmas gift to myself from my mom, though, so I'm looking forward to that. -dork-
♥ I miss talking with y'all. I doubt hardly any of you even read anything around here but fanfic, which hasn't been happening in a while, but I do miss commenting and conversations and having that back & forth exchange. I miss florahart having YIM, too. I was thinking the other day about the people I used to be close to who have disappeared without even goodbyes and those who have gone on to other fandoms that I haven't followed to and those who are still lingering and make it feel like coming home anytime I check LJ. I don't want to be one of those who just fade away without warning, but I can't say when or if I'll be into fandom stuff again beyond reading and all. I wanted to try writing something for Christmas, but, yeah, moving and pneumonia is knocking that hope away. Sigh. So, yeah, might be mostly RL and random crap I can write when I can finally put words to paper again, but I'm going to try to get better about updating for any of y'all who even care anymore.
♥ I hope everyone has a good holiday season, if you celebrate anything this time of year, and, if not, then I hope you have a great end of the year. Feel free to comment and let me know how you've been or your favorite TV shows I need to catch on DVD or movies I should catch or whatever. I'm on meds right now and under orders to stay in bed as much as possible for the next few days, so I'll be around some tonight, for sure, and comments might make bedrest more tolerable. Hugs and love to anyone who even read this far. Ha!
♥ The buying a house thing has been a pain in the ass. My grandpa is buying it due to his credit and other stuff, while my mom and I are actually paying mortgage payments and getting it in his will. All our side of stuff has been fine. We were supposed to close on 11/28, and I moved out of my apartment on 11/26 and into a spare bedroom at my grandpa's for what was supposed to be a week until we started moving into new house. Only, closing got pushed off. NINE TIMES it has been pushed off. My mom and I both used up most our PTO time at work for moving based on the dates they kept giving us, only to have dates pushed back more. Right now, I'm still living out of a suitcase and a box while we've been told it's for sure 100% closing tomorrow. We even terminated once last week due to all the stress and worry we've had to deal with, but the seller asked us to reconsider the next day. Turns out there's legal stuff from the bank who bought the foreclosure we're buying versus the original bank that sold it to them. Now that we know that, we understand the issues, but we've had three weeks with no answer and just a lot of worry and wasting time off work we could have not taken.
♥ I got a cold during the weekend I moved back in November. Seemed to go away but the cough lingered. This last weekend, it hit me hard again and I finally went to the doctor yesterday. I've got walking pneumonia, relatively severe since I let it go for weeks, and I've now had to use the last of my PTO time to take off the rest of this week so I can take the four prescriptions I was given and hope I stop feeling like death warmed over before Christmas, at least.
♥ Due to the moving, I wasn't able to do Christmas cards, which I love doing. I also wasn't able to request any, which I love doing. I received two, so that was nice, but it still hasn't felt much like Christmas with the stress of moving limbo and sickness. We didn't even get a tree up until last weekend because we had no idea when we'd be moving. Now, we're just doing Christmas at the grandpa's house like usual and hoping signing happens tomorrow so we can work on moving between Monday and NY's Day.
♥ Work is work. Lots of negativity around there and unhappy folks. I try to focus on the job I don't loathe and my paychecks, even if I'm doing twice the work for less money because I lost shift dif going from evenings to day shift.
♥ My sister turns 19 today. I feel very very old since I remember taking her around in her stroller and people assuming she was mine back when I was 16. I'll be turning 36 in February, which isn't that old but I just feel it or whatever. Lots of limbo-ish thoughts lately, I suppose.
♥ I'm still reading fandom stuff. Following a few holiday exchanges. Reading Hermione fic and Kirk/McCoy and Arthur/Eames and J2 AU and Merlin/Arthur AU and random stuff people rec that interest me. Also enjoying the daily dose of advent stuff I got through DreamSpinners, since I try each book even if it's not something that'd normally appeal to me.
♥ I miss writing. Right now, I can't even drabble, fandom or original. I know it's just mental RL stuff, but the lack of fandom writing is something I've missed all year. I try and I just can't get past the blocks. Doesn't even feel like burn out or anything, just a lack of being able to write. October marked my 12th anniversary of writing fanfic and yet I don't think I've written more than one or two things this year at all outside of original RPing at the_metroplex.
♥ heather makes me want to learn how to knit. She's always talking about it and posting pretty stuff and I love her very muchly even if she makes me want to do creative stuff I always suck at when I try.
♥ TV-wise, I'm hardly following anything these days that aren't random reality shows. My attention span sucks, I guess. I've been following Top Chef, of course, and I hated this season of ANTM (ugh all around) but I loved the NTM for Britain and Australia and New Zealand so whatev. I'm watching Storage Wars and Storage Wars Texas and enjoy those a lot despite figuring they're all pre-scripted and set up. I'd LOVE to have lunch with Barry and see his random collections of stuff. I've been watching Hoarders, which is a show that makes me conflicted because I find the psychological aspect of the real and true hoarders to be interesting and disturbing, but I also get frustrated by the people who enable a lot of it or the ones who claim to be hoarders but, to me, simply seem like lazy people who don't want to do housework. It's like there's a different between the truly mental ones and the ones who are 'I had kids and just stopped cleaning'. I mean WTF?
♥ Haven't seen many movies lately. Don't even rent stuff these days. I did buy a special edition Woodstock DVD as a Christmas gift to myself from my mom, though, so I'm looking forward to that. -dork-
♥ I miss talking with y'all. I doubt hardly any of you even read anything around here but fanfic, which hasn't been happening in a while, but I do miss commenting and conversations and having that back & forth exchange. I miss florahart having YIM, too. I was thinking the other day about the people I used to be close to who have disappeared without even goodbyes and those who have gone on to other fandoms that I haven't followed to and those who are still lingering and make it feel like coming home anytime I check LJ. I don't want to be one of those who just fade away without warning, but I can't say when or if I'll be into fandom stuff again beyond reading and all. I wanted to try writing something for Christmas, but, yeah, moving and pneumonia is knocking that hope away. Sigh. So, yeah, might be mostly RL and random crap I can write when I can finally put words to paper again, but I'm going to try to get better about updating for any of y'all who even care anymore.
♥ I hope everyone has a good holiday season, if you celebrate anything this time of year, and, if not, then I hope you have a great end of the year. Feel free to comment and let me know how you've been or your favorite TV shows I need to catch on DVD or movies I should catch or whatever. I'm on meds right now and under orders to stay in bed as much as possible for the next few days, so I'll be around some tonight, for sure, and comments might make bedrest more tolerable. Hugs and love to anyone who even read this far. Ha!