Troubles will come and they will pass
It is so frustrating to deal with writer's block. I keep having all these ideas, but I can't get anything to form into words. I miss writing Kirk/McCoy and my Hermione. I got lovely prompts on my Anniversary celebration post yet, when I open word, I can't even get a sentence written. I can't quite get a clear image in my head and, if I do, the words won't follow or I start doubting myself and feeling like maybe I've already written that before or did I read it somewhere. Then I start in on the whole insecure whining as I question whether I should even try writing when there are so many more creative and talented people writing fics I wish I was good enough to write. I've gone through blocks before, but I've almost always had RP that was my creative outlet with writing or I was co-writing with andrealyn or the block only last a month. I've barely written anything since I ended Two Men and a Starship last summer that wasn't a co-write or a one-shot that was the only thing written in weeks. I just...don't know.
I have ideas for original one-shots. Porny slash and romance of the slash and het variety. I even came up with a pen name (because, if I ever do finally write original in more than a hanging around LJ way, I'd rather keep it separated from as personal as I get here), and the blinking cursor just continues to taunt me while different scenarios play out in my head. But not even original, it's just everything. Writing is such an important part of me, and I feel sort of like I'm just not entirely complete when I'm not writing at least once a week or something. I keep trying to read more for inspiration, but that just leads to the whole "maybe I'm just out of ideas and OMG these people are so much better than I ever could be *sigh*" thing. Normally, when I feel those insecurities, I focus on writing and loving it and not caring. Lately, I just can't seem to get over whatever it is fencing me in. I mean, I LOVED Two Men, and it ate my life for like two months straight, and it's some of the best writing I think I've done and I don't even care about the anon wank/hate that came along with my posting it, and I've written things since that I really loved (heck, I keep thinking about making Drawn In into an original story with a few tweaks and expanding it, I liked the premise so much!), and writing with andrealyn was such fun and there are still some ideas and that's why I feel so frustrated and anxious and maybe even a little scared.
Since I know other people deal with block and situations like this, I thought maybe it was time to just ramble here in hopes that it frees me or something happens to get me out of this cycle. What have y'all done when you've felt like this, if you ever have? Are there any suggestions on what I might do to get over this? I've tried doing random drabbles but hit that "oh, this sucks/is repetitive/ugh" wall. I considered asking for image prompts or something but then I just feel terrible when I can't write anything and people took time to give me inspiration and then it's all failure-y feeling. And I know that my having writer's block is not some tragedy, especially when compared to so many things happening in our world today and in y'all's lives, but I just feel lost and anxious so I had to try to put it into words. Love and hugs to all of you!
I have ideas for original one-shots. Porny slash and romance of the slash and het variety. I even came up with a pen name (because, if I ever do finally write original in more than a hanging around LJ way, I'd rather keep it separated from as personal as I get here), and the blinking cursor just continues to taunt me while different scenarios play out in my head. But not even original, it's just everything. Writing is such an important part of me, and I feel sort of like I'm just not entirely complete when I'm not writing at least once a week or something. I keep trying to read more for inspiration, but that just leads to the whole "maybe I'm just out of ideas and OMG these people are so much better than I ever could be *sigh*" thing. Normally, when I feel those insecurities, I focus on writing and loving it and not caring. Lately, I just can't seem to get over whatever it is fencing me in. I mean, I LOVED Two Men, and it ate my life for like two months straight, and it's some of the best writing I think I've done and I don't even care about the anon wank/hate that came along with my posting it, and I've written things since that I really loved (heck, I keep thinking about making Drawn In into an original story with a few tweaks and expanding it, I liked the premise so much!), and writing with andrealyn was such fun and there are still some ideas and that's why I feel so frustrated and anxious and maybe even a little scared.
Since I know other people deal with block and situations like this, I thought maybe it was time to just ramble here in hopes that it frees me or something happens to get me out of this cycle. What have y'all done when you've felt like this, if you ever have? Are there any suggestions on what I might do to get over this? I've tried doing random drabbles but hit that "oh, this sucks/is repetitive/ugh" wall. I considered asking for image prompts or something but then I just feel terrible when I can't write anything and people took time to give me inspiration and then it's all failure-y feeling. And I know that my having writer's block is not some tragedy, especially when compared to so many things happening in our world today and in y'all's lives, but I just feel lost and anxious so I had to try to put it into words. Love and hugs to all of you!