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His lips taste like mints and skin is salty. When reaches out to me I can feel the electricity firing through my veins. It tingles all the way from my tailbone to my nipples. My clit gets tight and my eyes roll back. The pleasure I feel at his touch causes me to moan. I whisper his name but that does not satisfy this man. No he wants me to scream it. So I do. He smiles down at me. I melt inside. Oh how I love that smile! He watches me always staring into me not at me or through me but into me. I feel naked when I'm fully dressed. Those eyes following me wherever I go within his presence. He excites me and when he finally kissed me I thought I would explode. This man of mine will cause me nothing but pain. But the passion to get there will be worth every tear.
I was patient, it only took 6 months but I got him...
He kissed me in May. He fucked me in June. It's July and he is obsessed with me. I think soon he will grow tired of giving me his time. Jason. That's his name. Another guy and another lover. I still see Ryan from time to time. I know he hurt me but I always seem to go back to him. He hurts me now for thrills. The pain reminds me why I can never love him again. Jason looks at me and sees beauty. He doesn't know me though. He thinks he does but he has no idea. How could he, he only ever speaks about himself. His wife and her limitations of sex.She's vanilla 100% but she wasn't always like this. Before they had kids, (he's married too,I know my first)she was spontaneous and free loving but now she is reserved. Almost prudish. He being a horny man that he is, wants it more than once or twice a month. I orgasm everyday! It is important no matter the limited time I have, I find time! I wonder if she experienced masturbation at hey own hands, (finally) and decided she could do it better. Lol Of course I do not mention this to Jason, (because guys are prideful and egotistical and it could hurt him)but it's possible. He isn't very big but he tries and I like him. He makes me laugh but he never really wants to talk unless it's sexual. That's great but it gets boring after a while. I see all the time in public but all he ever does is talk about his problems and I sit and listen and later forget. Then I try to remember but I have no idea. He's 11 years older than me. We have very little in common. But when I'm with him it's nice. Safe, comfortable, and the loneliness that follows me eases from my heart and chest. My mind stops racing and soul brightens. I feel peaceful with him. He smells so good. And he is always sweating lol i have no idea how he does not stink. Usually sweaty guys have an odor but he does not. I gave him a blow job but he did not cum and he was okay with that. He figured me and I came hard! He loved that. He isn't very good at oral but I'm okay with that. I prefer hands anyways. He has two sets of twins with his wife of 14 years. I still only have the one kid with my husband of 12 years. Sometimes it hits me that if he found out it would destroy him but I can't stop. I don't want to. I want Jason. He does not plan on ending us anytime soon either. I think he's in for the long affair but guys are fickle. So we shall see. Right now I'm a mess.
I'm trying for a kid. Been trying for some years now. My husband will leave me if I can't give him what he wants. We all know how terrible my life was my last separation so I'm trying. I hate babies. Love children but babies are so needed and they cry so often. I hope it's a girl. Girls are tougher than guys.
Inside I'm crying
Outside I smile
The tears are hidden in the dark
The laughter brightens the light
There is no pain in my eyes
There is only joy within me
I was patient, it only took 6 months but I got him...
He kissed me in May. He fucked me in June. It's July and he is obsessed with me. I think soon he will grow tired of giving me his time. Jason. That's his name. Another guy and another lover. I still see Ryan from time to time. I know he hurt me but I always seem to go back to him. He hurts me now for thrills. The pain reminds me why I can never love him again. Jason looks at me and sees beauty. He doesn't know me though. He thinks he does but he has no idea. How could he, he only ever speaks about himself. His wife and her limitations of sex.She's vanilla 100% but she wasn't always like this. Before they had kids, (he's married too,I know my first)she was spontaneous and free loving but now she is reserved. Almost prudish. He being a horny man that he is, wants it more than once or twice a month. I orgasm everyday! It is important no matter the limited time I have, I find time! I wonder if she experienced masturbation at hey own hands, (finally) and decided she could do it better. Lol Of course I do not mention this to Jason, (because guys are prideful and egotistical and it could hurt him)but it's possible. He isn't very big but he tries and I like him. He makes me laugh but he never really wants to talk unless it's sexual. That's great but it gets boring after a while. I see all the time in public but all he ever does is talk about his problems and I sit and listen and later forget. Then I try to remember but I have no idea. He's 11 years older than me. We have very little in common. But when I'm with him it's nice. Safe, comfortable, and the loneliness that follows me eases from my heart and chest. My mind stops racing and soul brightens. I feel peaceful with him. He smells so good. And he is always sweating lol i have no idea how he does not stink. Usually sweaty guys have an odor but he does not. I gave him a blow job but he did not cum and he was okay with that. He figured me and I came hard! He loved that. He isn't very good at oral but I'm okay with that. I prefer hands anyways. He has two sets of twins with his wife of 14 years. I still only have the one kid with my husband of 12 years. Sometimes it hits me that if he found out it would destroy him but I can't stop. I don't want to. I want Jason. He does not plan on ending us anytime soon either. I think he's in for the long affair but guys are fickle. So we shall see. Right now I'm a mess.
I'm trying for a kid. Been trying for some years now. My husband will leave me if I can't give him what he wants. We all know how terrible my life was my last separation so I'm trying. I hate babies. Love children but babies are so needed and they cry so often. I hope it's a girl. Girls are tougher than guys.
Inside I'm crying
Outside I smile
The tears are hidden in the dark
The laughter brightens the light
There is no pain in my eyes
There is only joy within me