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(note: some other guy's blog said: "random fact #167:The world's longest burp lasted 2 years and 17 days, done by Mr F. Hapsfield of Kent, UK. But the record books wouldn't allow it as it was aided by the use of an adapted iron lung.)
i've got an interview for a new job. some management position in greensboro. kind of excited. more money. more work. more time to forget and whatnot.
why can i only write beautiful words when i'm quietly alone in my room after some angry spat or emotional turmoil? My mom and i argued yesterday about the dvd The Secret. she wants me to watch it. i refuse. it's silly. who wants to be happy all the time? without unhappiness, wouldnt you constantly be striving to be happier? And not only that, but without unhappiness, how can one have happiness at all? And then there's the issue that only when people have problems do they ask questions and better themselves and their surroundings... or at least look for new approaches.
she argued and said that people don't have to be unhappy to create something new. i said cars. she said people were searching for new things. but would they have searched for something new if they had been completely happy and content with life? NO. duh.
happiness is an illusion. you can feel whatever you make yourself feel. i tell myself i'm happy, i can be happy. i tell myself i'm angry or upset or pissed off or mischievous, i can be angry or upset or pissed off or mischievous. why do i need a dvd to tell me what i already know?
like right now.
i tell myself i feel nothing. and i don't. i look at the other patrons of this little corporate cafe, lost in their small talk and their laptops and their endlessly unsatisfying cups of sumatran blend, and i don't think. not until i tell myself to feel something. and then i feel alone. but does alone automatically constitute unhappiness or happiness or any emotional disposition at all? no.
so i'm alone in this well lit cavern with 19 other people who are just as alone as i will ever be. que sera. i'm ok with alone. but for how long?
wow that was long. sorry guys. rambling. you know the drill. sometimes i can't decide whether lonely is a good feeling or a bad feeling.
i've got an interview for a new job. some management position in greensboro. kind of excited. more money. more work. more time to forget and whatnot.
why can i only write beautiful words when i'm quietly alone in my room after some angry spat or emotional turmoil? My mom and i argued yesterday about the dvd The Secret. she wants me to watch it. i refuse. it's silly. who wants to be happy all the time? without unhappiness, wouldnt you constantly be striving to be happier? And not only that, but without unhappiness, how can one have happiness at all? And then there's the issue that only when people have problems do they ask questions and better themselves and their surroundings... or at least look for new approaches.
she argued and said that people don't have to be unhappy to create something new. i said cars. she said people were searching for new things. but would they have searched for something new if they had been completely happy and content with life? NO. duh.
happiness is an illusion. you can feel whatever you make yourself feel. i tell myself i'm happy, i can be happy. i tell myself i'm angry or upset or pissed off or mischievous, i can be angry or upset or pissed off or mischievous. why do i need a dvd to tell me what i already know?
like right now.
i tell myself i feel nothing. and i don't. i look at the other patrons of this little corporate cafe, lost in their small talk and their laptops and their endlessly unsatisfying cups of sumatran blend, and i don't think. not until i tell myself to feel something. and then i feel alone. but does alone automatically constitute unhappiness or happiness or any emotional disposition at all? no.
so i'm alone in this well lit cavern with 19 other people who are just as alone as i will ever be. que sera. i'm ok with alone. but for how long?
wow that was long. sorry guys. rambling. you know the drill. sometimes i can't decide whether lonely is a good feeling or a bad feeling.