I guess I don't like change...

[ineedspeed]

I want to see everything back the way it used to be. When we were a big family. When everyones goal wasn't to get high all the time. Or when we didn't all hate each other for some reason or another. When drama was limited and exclusion unnecessary and nonexistent. When movies nights meant the whole crew, and lots of playful molestation. And I miss

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it was just easier this way.

[tweekyx12]

Nirvi baby: I think that most change is necessary
Nirvi baby: and sometimes it just kinda happens
Nirvi baby: I think you're a good person, or you at least try really hard to be and sometimes, commonly I suppose, it goes unappreciated
Nirvi baby: I did like it when there was minimal drama and segregation and when we were a big family
Nirvi baby: I think I don't know.
kellatdads: can you put that into an lj comment so i have it for refrence later please
Nirvi baby: I guess some of us (the ones that have been smoking regularly) cope better with our lives and everything when we're high and just have an easier time
Nirvi baby: yes
Nirvi baby: what I can do I guess is say it all to you now then copy paste and such
Nirvi baby: And also, those of us that do do the drugs are aware that some of you don't like and we try not to do it around you, we still try to resepect those that don't like it.
Nirvi baby: hence I guess the reasons we tell the straight edge kids not to come when they're stoner fests and state when it will be clean
Nirvi baby: but sometimes, none of the straightedge people show up to the clean parties and it's just stoners so we're like, hey we'e got weed, none of the sXe kids are coming. lets get high and chill.
kellatdads: because we have been disapoined to many times
Nirvi baby: and though the old family was amazing, I think that currently with our smaller groups we're all getting to know eachother in our groups better. but at the same time we're losing those from the other groups.
Nirvi baby: and when we specifically invite them to an event and say there will be no drugs and then none of them show up, it's really dissapointing, just like it is for you guys when we end up doing them.
Nirvi baby: anywho. I don't know.
Nirvi baby: I wish there was a way we could have both.
kellatdads: for a while some of the drugies were smart abotu it
kellatdads: and it didnt engulf their whole life
Nirvi baby: yeah
kellatdads: and that was fine
Nirvi baby: now it's taken control of us.
kellatdads: thats when i could deal with it and it was harmonious
kellatdads: and things still worked
Nirvi baby: I guess I can kinda say it both ways because before I didn't hate drugs but I didn't necessarily like them, but now, I'm becoming more and more addicted
kellatdads: but now its like wake up, get high, go to school, get home from school, get high,
Nirvi baby: we get high at school too
kellatdads: good for you
kellatdads: thats why im not around anymore
Nirvi baby: every time theres time we do it. it kills me.
kellatdads: thats all are of you are
kellatdads: your just brainless sacks of pot and no offence intended
kellatdads: but it just seems all of you are completely and utterly and uncontrollably consumed by the high
kellatdads: i mean like even yesterday at erik
kellatdads: s
kellatdads: you werent all high
kellatdads: but you wre watching a drug movie
kellatdads: its your life
kellatdads: and thats it
kellatdads: and its really sad to see
Nirvi baby: yeah
Nirvi baby: well we always watch drug movies
kellatdads: thatas not how it used to be
Nirvi baby: I stay up at night though, educating myself on the drugs I do though.
Nirvi baby: which I can't say is a good thing
Nirvi baby: but better than not being educated at all
Nirvi baby: anywho.
Nirvi baby: I mean.
Nirvi baby: I don't know.