The representative of california has the floor...
This is the most I have written in this thing in forever.
I knew that kiss was the climax... and what happens after the climax? That's when everything starts going down. Tonight at work, I felt like I was back in Elementary/Middle/High School. You know how when boys DON'T like you, they ignore you? Yea... that's what happened. I'm bummed out about it. Borderline depressed about it. Not because he doesn't like me back. I mean, I don't blame him, I'm getting ready to leave in a few weeks. It would have been hard on me to pursue anything with him.
No, but I'm not bummed about him not liking me. I've dealt with that all my life. What I am sad about is, that no boys like me. I'm just not a likeable type of girl. What's wrong with me? Maybe I do like guys that are out of my league... or as some people have told me "Too good looking for me" Whatever it is... I obviously keep making the same mistake when I like a boy. Evy didn't know I've never had a boyfriend! In the 20 years I've been on this earth, I have never had a special someone... ever. I'm starting to think the Psychic in New Orleans didn't know what he was talking about. I mean How am I supposed to have a serious relationship with someone or even get married with my luck. I honestly do believe I'm going to end up alone. It's sad and I hate being so negative, but I gotta face the truth... I'm gonna end up an old maid!
Thank you Chad... for opening my eyes to my destiny. I think I'll shoot myself now. Or at least cry myself to sleep. Before I do, I have to work on my project for the Radio 305 show tomorrow. OK well yea, I'm off to not think about my sorry excuse of an existance... I can't even spell it!
I knew that kiss was the climax... and what happens after the climax? That's when everything starts going down. Tonight at work, I felt like I was back in Elementary/Middle/High School. You know how when boys DON'T like you, they ignore you? Yea... that's what happened. I'm bummed out about it. Borderline depressed about it. Not because he doesn't like me back. I mean, I don't blame him, I'm getting ready to leave in a few weeks. It would have been hard on me to pursue anything with him.
No, but I'm not bummed about him not liking me. I've dealt with that all my life. What I am sad about is, that no boys like me. I'm just not a likeable type of girl. What's wrong with me? Maybe I do like guys that are out of my league... or as some people have told me "Too good looking for me" Whatever it is... I obviously keep making the same mistake when I like a boy. Evy didn't know I've never had a boyfriend! In the 20 years I've been on this earth, I have never had a special someone... ever. I'm starting to think the Psychic in New Orleans didn't know what he was talking about. I mean How am I supposed to have a serious relationship with someone or even get married with my luck. I honestly do believe I'm going to end up alone. It's sad and I hate being so negative, but I gotta face the truth... I'm gonna end up an old maid!
Thank you Chad... for opening my eyes to my destiny. I think I'll shoot myself now. Or at least cry myself to sleep. Before I do, I have to work on my project for the Radio 305 show tomorrow. OK well yea, I'm off to not think about my sorry excuse of an existance... I can't even spell it!