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I just want to fucking kill myself. How could I do this? I fucking wrecked my car. HOW???? Why me?? I was just going christmas shopping. I just wanted to get back to Jana's and then home. Why the fuck me? And i dont know how long im gonna be out of a car. Which means im gonna need a ride to places. Today fucking sucked. I fucking hate myself for doing this. There goes my fucking Christmas. Well I guess now that ive calmed down, the good thing is that im ok. But i feel like a dumbass even though it was an accident! Ok well il gonna go. And i dont really wanna kill myself just for the record and umm im still sad and mad at myself but accidents happen! My neighbor, Bryan is going to take me to school on Monday and so yes. Everything will eventually be ok! Once we get passed all of the insurance crap and umm yes. But I cant wait til i get my car back. But Jana was there for me! And she's such a wonderful friend! And im so glad that she's mine!! Well umm yeah it's weird cuz i had negative stuff to say when i started thing and now im just trying to think positivly!! Good thing im always happy! It helps! Plus, i have my friends!