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I'm kind of sneaking online to post this, but I had to because I'm so freakin' distressed right now I don't even know what to do.
So, we all know Mother Nature hasn't been paying me much mind in the past few months (read: year), but at first I didn't think it was a big deal. I mean, sometimes you get stressed. Sometimes you don't get enough exercise. Sometimes your body is just whacky that way. But eventually I bucked up and went to the doctor because, okay after a year, things are getting a bit troubling.
And then I had this weird problem - I broke out like crazy. Pimples EVERYWHERE. I mean, it's normal to get pimples right? That's life. But I mean, this is like... crazy breakout central on my forehead, yo. I think it might be in part due to the acne shit I've been using (on the other hand, this stuff is supposed to be SUPER GOOD, so I dunno). But well... it's kind of frustrating. Especially since I usually have super clear skin (I asked for foundation from a cosmetics girl once and she looked at me kind of weird and asked why, because my skin was so clear.) So I guess I'm spoiled.
Anyway, pimples, an off-period, doesn't really seem all that big of a deal. I'm not feeling sick (except when I am), and I'm fairly normal otherwise.
Until this past week. My hair. It's begun to fall out. I noticed a lot of... excess shedding, which didn't seem normal but my mom was like, "Oh, it's totally normal and besides, your hair is dry, it's probably just breaking off." BUT OH MY GOD GUYS. I just brushed my hair (I just took a shower this morning and my hair is already greasy WTF IS THAT.) and holy crap. I have lost A LOT OF HAIR. It's not super noticeable unless you've pretty much lived with it, but my part seems to have widened and if I try to part it any other way (I usually do that when it seems my part is getting abnormally wide) UH IT JUST LOOKS WORSE BECAUSE I HAVE NO FUCKING HAIR.
I'm FREAKING OUT. I mean, maybe it's nothing. But considering my health issues, I'm so scared I'm going to lose all my hair. I knew it was getting thin but this is... so scary. I need to get my blood work done RIGHT NOW. And my ultrasound, yeah I'm not putting that off any longer. Fuck. I don't think I'll get my hair cut right away because I just don't think I can handle that, unless there is some way to make it look miraculously better, BUT I'M LOSING MY HAIR CHRIST.
On the other hand, I could skip all this nonsense, shave it all off and go buy some awesome wigs. But my haaaaair. (Of course, I could just be overreacting. It IS only the top, for the most part. Underneath is still relatively normal.)
So, we all know Mother Nature hasn't been paying me much mind in the past few months (read: year), but at first I didn't think it was a big deal. I mean, sometimes you get stressed. Sometimes you don't get enough exercise. Sometimes your body is just whacky that way. But eventually I bucked up and went to the doctor because, okay after a year, things are getting a bit troubling.
And then I had this weird problem - I broke out like crazy. Pimples EVERYWHERE. I mean, it's normal to get pimples right? That's life. But I mean, this is like... crazy breakout central on my forehead, yo. I think it might be in part due to the acne shit I've been using (on the other hand, this stuff is supposed to be SUPER GOOD, so I dunno). But well... it's kind of frustrating. Especially since I usually have super clear skin (I asked for foundation from a cosmetics girl once and she looked at me kind of weird and asked why, because my skin was so clear.) So I guess I'm spoiled.
Anyway, pimples, an off-period, doesn't really seem all that big of a deal. I'm not feeling sick (except when I am), and I'm fairly normal otherwise.
Until this past week. My hair. It's begun to fall out. I noticed a lot of... excess shedding, which didn't seem normal but my mom was like, "Oh, it's totally normal and besides, your hair is dry, it's probably just breaking off." BUT OH MY GOD GUYS. I just brushed my hair (I just took a shower this morning and my hair is already greasy WTF IS THAT.) and holy crap. I have lost A LOT OF HAIR. It's not super noticeable unless you've pretty much lived with it, but my part seems to have widened and if I try to part it any other way (I usually do that when it seems my part is getting abnormally wide) UH IT JUST LOOKS WORSE BECAUSE I HAVE NO FUCKING HAIR.
I'm FREAKING OUT. I mean, maybe it's nothing. But considering my health issues, I'm so scared I'm going to lose all my hair. I knew it was getting thin but this is... so scary. I need to get my blood work done RIGHT NOW. And my ultrasound, yeah I'm not putting that off any longer. Fuck. I don't think I'll get my hair cut right away because I just don't think I can handle that, unless there is some way to make it look miraculously better, BUT I'M LOSING MY HAIR CHRIST.
On the other hand, I could skip all this nonsense, shave it all off and go buy some awesome wigs. But my haaaaair. (Of course, I could just be overreacting. It IS only the top, for the most part. Underneath is still relatively normal.)