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I have been gone a month now. I like it here. It's a nice - different change. I'm just not sure I will be gone longer than a year. It's a deep gut feeling. However, the only 3 things that will keep me here are, most importantly #1, the others are just stupid, really:
1) I get a great job
2) I fall head over heels for someone and it's reciprocated (and I know who I want it to be - mon retardés français baiseuse)
3) travelling becomes way to easy and fun (i.e. maschinenfest, form of hands, treffen festivals, etc).
While I don't see much reason to come home other than I miss some of you, I feel l may need my home back. There really isnt anything for me there which is why I left in the first place but it's my sense of security that I have lost and in a good way it's nice to have lost it and trust and rely on myself to make it instead of dragging some of you down with me. Which was not intentional, it just got too easy to mask everything with going out every damn weekend, now I am by myself and realising things that I never really did before. I've gone out ONCE since I have been here.