butterflies
new years is coming up, this year went by at a pretty fast pace. theres an up side and a down side to the new years though. Good side: this new years i get to meet the girl ive been talkin to for a while in tampa. I really care for her and would anything for her. Down side: this is the first time we will have met in person, it makes wonder if everything we have together now will still be there when we meet in person. I hate to say it, but i have a gut feeling they won't. She is very attractive and has a really cool personality, but its not her im worried about, it's myself. Yeah we have sent pictures of each other and talk to each other all the time, but a picture can only say so much. As i said before she has nothing to worry about, but one might say, she seems out of my league. It makes me a nervous when i think about it. I really care for her and want nothing more than for us two to hit it off and have a relationship. But i think that me in person might hinder this from happening. I mean im not that bad looking, and i have a great personality or so people say. It's just that something like this has happened before and it hurts when someone you care about suddenly sees you for the first time and drops you like a fuckin toilet seat. I dont think i could take something like that again. I suppose all i can do is hope for the best and pray that she's right one. From what we have had so far, i badly want to say that she is the right one. it just makes me have butterflies when i think of it. I know that she is very beautiful, it's just me. i dont know, maybe i just have really low self-esteem.