unwanted
today was just a big heaping pile of man mud served hot and fresh on a plate made of pubic hair. In other words today blew browneye. Ive been treated like ass by just about everyone except a select few friends, namely theres like 4 that were cool with me today. Other than that everyone is just breathing my air and pissing me awf. i get home today and my mom starts bitching to me about scheisse of which i dont really feel like hearing. I go to work and my boss is being the equivalent to genital herpes, being he keeps popping up and annoys the shit out of me and wont go away and then he goes and fucks up my schedule to something totally shitty. I get home Mother keeps bitching since she is intent to tell me that im worthless and am a waste of space in this world. Then my dad's girlfriend calls me and she tells me hes leaving her for a younger woman and said that she cant talk to me anymore, so she called to say good bye to me and was all upset since she wont be able to come down for graduation and how she wont be able to see me anymore, which blows since shes a cool lady and i really thought she was the one for my pops. On the other hand, i havent heard from my father in about a month and hes spending all his time with some young chick whos prolly closer to my age then she is to him, so it appears that he is being occupied enough to not care about me and my brother way down here in florida whilst he does whatever to whomever up in nashville. So dads now ex girlfriend is calin me up all crying and says shes sorry and how shell never forget me and how she loves me and was very happy that i was introduced into her life and how she'll never forget me. So to weight everything down and sum it all up, mom thinks im a worthless piece of shit and a drain on the economy and am capable of completing nothing for some reason, even though he sits around and watches oprah all day while my stepdad and myself work our ass off to support us,my dad hasnt called me in a month since he is being entertained or sidetracked or just blew me the fuck off sicne he now has a young woman to keep happy, his ex girlfriend calls me crying since he told her she cant see or talk to us anymore which blows since she was really a nice and caring person and i dont liek seeing good people get hurt. Maybe im just too much of a nice guy. But then again who can blame me. i was shat on in life so far and i try to treat people like i want to be treated but it seems truly that nice guys finish last and without any consolation. perhaps i am just a talentless, meaningless existence in this world. Or is their truly a force at hand that decides our paths, i hope not or im fucked. As of right now lady luck is a pornstar, shes lookin for anyone to fuck.