Venting time

[industrialmoon]

Right now I need to vent. Because I am sick of crying. I am sick of being upset at things unfolding around me. It all started when I was on myspace and I was looking at Natalies new pictures I took of her on her site then I moved on to Bryans profile and saw that he put all his new info up and my blood boiled and then I started to leak from my eyes

Comments

[morgaynne]

Hey Hon, I get where you are at. I really do. Fear of being replaced is the main thing fucking me up right now. But whether or not he chooses to share his life or bed with anyone else, he cannot replace you. You brought something unique and special to this relationship that no one else ever could. You brought you. You will learn and grow and move on with your life as he moves on with his. Wanting someone else to stay and understand the mistakes they are making is understandable. But you never have control over anothers actions, no matter how long you've been together or how healthy you think the relationship is. Someone can always choose to leave. That is okay. You will be okay. You will move on with your life in any directions you choose. And as you say this love you feel is a new level of emotion for you, now that you are open to that sort of emotion and realize the possibility of it's existance in your relationships, you will find it again. And you will find deeper levels of love and compassion below it. Take care of yourself now. Vent, cry, scream, tell the stars how you feel, yell at whatever diety you wish about the injustice of love. Let yourself feel however you feel. Give yourself time, and be gentle with yourself. It's not your responsibility to make him feel good about his choices. Good luck, and be well, we'll talk soon I'm sure.

[industrialmoon]

Yeah. Everything makes sense in my brain and then part of my emotions just over flow and I become girl. Heh. After letting everything off my chest to him last night was good and walks are great. I relise. I want him as a good friend even a best friend. And whatever happens. I will make the best of it.