You gave me so much room, now I can't breath...
I started my Livejournal during a snow-storm. Funny.
The New Year approaches. This year ends. Good thing? Maybe. Was quite a year.
Lets look, once more, at those resolutions:
1. Successful and Peaceful Trip to California.
I went to California three times this year. Once each in January, July, and October. All three times brought nothing but good memories. I am glad things calmed down there.
2. Dine at Alinea.
Yes I did.
3. Go to Europe.
Yes I did.
4. Get a job with Life Care Services.
Fail. Starting an unpaid internship to get my Maryland Nursing Home Administrator License in February, so at least that's something.
5. Graduate from Towson University Magna Cum Laude
Success.
6. Settle into a place of my own wherever I end up.
Epic Fail. Long term.
7. Get in Shape.
I joined a gym, but that's not the same.
8. Be in a steady relationship.
Super-massive-black-hole-fuck-up fail. Had two boyfriends (btw, I've come out of the closet to pretty much everyone now, but that's the first time I've explicitly put it on here. So that's at least an accomplishment.) One slowly lost interested and when it ended it was a good thing after a day or two. The second one effectively ripped my heart out without warning and its been weeks and I'm still on the verge of tears half the time. He made me feel incapable of being loved and I will never forgive him for that. This will not be a resolution for 2010.
9. Be home for Christmas.
duh
10. Find a 10th resolution.
I couldn't even manage this one.
So overall, this was not the most productive year. Lets try 2010.
1. Have a successful internship to get my Maryland Nursing Home Administrator License.
2. Learn how to ski.
3. Dine at Per Se.
4. Make it to California at least once.
5. Get in shape.
It might be a less ambitious list, but the first one is pretty big. I need to learn how to be alone and happy. I need to learn how to love myself. I crave attention and companionship and affection so much. I need to grow up. Welcome 2010!
The New Year approaches. This year ends. Good thing? Maybe. Was quite a year.
Lets look, once more, at those resolutions:
1. Successful and Peaceful Trip to California.
I went to California three times this year. Once each in January, July, and October. All three times brought nothing but good memories. I am glad things calmed down there.
2. Dine at Alinea.
Yes I did.
3. Go to Europe.
Yes I did.
4. Get a job with Life Care Services.
Fail. Starting an unpaid internship to get my Maryland Nursing Home Administrator License in February, so at least that's something.
5. Graduate from Towson University Magna Cum Laude
Success.
6. Settle into a place of my own wherever I end up.
Epic Fail. Long term.
7. Get in Shape.
I joined a gym, but that's not the same.
8. Be in a steady relationship.
Super-massive-black-hole-fuck-up fail. Had two boyfriends (btw, I've come out of the closet to pretty much everyone now, but that's the first time I've explicitly put it on here. So that's at least an accomplishment.) One slowly lost interested and when it ended it was a good thing after a day or two. The second one effectively ripped my heart out without warning and its been weeks and I'm still on the verge of tears half the time. He made me feel incapable of being loved and I will never forgive him for that. This will not be a resolution for 2010.
9. Be home for Christmas.
duh
10. Find a 10th resolution.
I couldn't even manage this one.
So overall, this was not the most productive year. Lets try 2010.
1. Have a successful internship to get my Maryland Nursing Home Administrator License.
2. Learn how to ski.
3. Dine at Per Se.
4. Make it to California at least once.
5. Get in shape.
It might be a less ambitious list, but the first one is pretty big. I need to learn how to be alone and happy. I need to learn how to love myself. I crave attention and companionship and affection so much. I need to grow up. Welcome 2010!