Supernatural Fic: Six Things Sam never wanted to Do, and One He Does- part 2 Gen PG
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Sam never wanted to be sad.
Dean had been sad sometimes when they were kids, especially in May the week after Sam’s birthday when all the kids made cards for their mothers and stores decorated shelves with maternal themes. He and John also went silent around the first week of November, and while it had taken Sam a while to understand ( Read more... )
That would have been hilarious, seeing Dean give her that talk. I bet he wouldn't have let her date til she turned legal, LOL.
He had left a couple of seats empty in the front row where he liked to imagine his parents would have been and at some points in the ceremony he could almost see his mother crying and his father beaming that slightly shy and proud smile of his.
*tears up*
His fiancée had tried to convince him to use one of her brothers, but he’d been unable to bear the thought of anyone else standing beside him at the altar. And, ironically enough, while he always felt Dean by his side, he’d never felt his absence more than he had on that day.
It wouldn't be right to have anybody else there.
He’d tried to be there for Dean too. He’d tried so hard that Dean had to knock him out or there would have been two bodies lying there the next day. And, he thinks, for all Dean’s vulnerabilities, he’d been the strongest man alive to face such a fate without someone there to hold his hand.
Too true.
It isn’t until the end that Sam realizes his family may not be there for the beginning of this journey, but they’ll be there to welcome him home.
Aw; you are trying to break my heart again, aren't you?
And for the one year he fought for Dean’s soul, he prayed so hard for his brother that he knew God couldn’t ignore him.
And when nothing happened, when his miracle didn’t appear, his faith died with his brother. He still fought for good, but he did it without the trust that that some all-powerful being was at his side.
Later, when he had children, he went through the motions of believing because he wanted his kids to have the faith he could no longer muster. Because he knows it got him through some difficult times, he gives them the opportunity he never had. Because the thing is- Sam’s always wanted to believe, but he’s not sure he’s ever truly been able to.
Oh, Sam.
Wonderful companion piece to the previous fic. I'm left wanting more details about Dean's kid, but knowing that this is almost perfect this way too. You tear me apart, lol. Great job!
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Thanks for the review. I'm glad you liked it, but I didn't think this was THAT sad, so your heart should only be a little broken, right?
Oh, I miss my Supernatural.
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*claps excitedly* Nothing I love more. Just for that talk, I'm also imagining a potential alternate version of the story, in which say, Dean didn't die. What would happen then? *strokes chin in thoughtful manner* I'm full of ideas, just ask and I'll spread them out for your picking, LOL.
Well, my heart wasn't as broken as when I was reading Dean's story, but it cracked a little ;).
I do too.
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As for the alternate- I'm a little wary of making it too light, that, after all this angst, it's all of a sudden easy. I feel the end should come from Kripke- because I think it's gonna be messy. Personally, I'm just sure I couldn't do half as good a job!
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