yeah, fuck.
so i'm not dead.
quick update:
target is amazing, i got paid today, only 100 dollars but it's better than nothing. i'm gonna use the money to pay back my mom and pay for matt's tattoo and everything left i'll use to save for christmas presents.
rear ended someone. luckily when i pulled over they drove away like they didn't care. so lucky me. i figure someone was trying to warn me to be more careful.
so of course i didn't learn my lesson and i ended up running into a tree today. not too bad, i got stuck in a snowbank and didn't pay attention accelerating out of it and ran into the tree. my fault, i didn't pay enough attention. luckily only the front bumper is cracked a tiny bit, barely noticeable.
i think someone up there is trying to tell me something. i've had so many near accidents and actual accidents... i think i've finally learned my lesson. i'm definately not driving for awhile though, i think i'll just let my mom drive me around like she has been for the last 16 years and leave my car in the driveway for awhile.
trucks are horrible in the winter... especially with no sandbags in the back and no snow tires. fuck the snow.
i HATE IT. until like the beginning of january when i start snowboarding.
matt and i are doing ten thousand times better lately. his eighteenth birthday was today... i baked him a cake and tried to make it special because it seemed like nobody else would. i love that boy so much. sometimes i get scared because he's 18 now and i'm afraid he'll think he's older and wiser and he can do alot more now. but i know he loves me and i'm confident in our love. it's cute when he plans ahead, it makes me feel important... he wants me to go to UB with him. i dont know yet.
sarah and i are great. always together, always bffe. i read hannah's journal today for the fiorst time in months. i sometimes just like to read up on her life and see how she's doing. sometimes i wish i could just take her in my arms and let her know how much i love her. i hope she knows i'll always be here.
i miss people though.
i'm exhausted and shaken up from this bullshit truck-tree accident.
outy.
♥
quick update:
target is amazing, i got paid today, only 100 dollars but it's better than nothing. i'm gonna use the money to pay back my mom and pay for matt's tattoo and everything left i'll use to save for christmas presents.
rear ended someone. luckily when i pulled over they drove away like they didn't care. so lucky me. i figure someone was trying to warn me to be more careful.
so of course i didn't learn my lesson and i ended up running into a tree today. not too bad, i got stuck in a snowbank and didn't pay attention accelerating out of it and ran into the tree. my fault, i didn't pay enough attention. luckily only the front bumper is cracked a tiny bit, barely noticeable.
i think someone up there is trying to tell me something. i've had so many near accidents and actual accidents... i think i've finally learned my lesson. i'm definately not driving for awhile though, i think i'll just let my mom drive me around like she has been for the last 16 years and leave my car in the driveway for awhile.
trucks are horrible in the winter... especially with no sandbags in the back and no snow tires. fuck the snow.
i HATE IT. until like the beginning of january when i start snowboarding.
matt and i are doing ten thousand times better lately. his eighteenth birthday was today... i baked him a cake and tried to make it special because it seemed like nobody else would. i love that boy so much. sometimes i get scared because he's 18 now and i'm afraid he'll think he's older and wiser and he can do alot more now. but i know he loves me and i'm confident in our love. it's cute when he plans ahead, it makes me feel important... he wants me to go to UB with him. i dont know yet.
sarah and i are great. always together, always bffe. i read hannah's journal today for the fiorst time in months. i sometimes just like to read up on her life and see how she's doing. sometimes i wish i could just take her in my arms and let her know how much i love her. i hope she knows i'll always be here.
i miss people though.
i'm exhausted and shaken up from this bullshit truck-tree accident.
outy.
♥