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i've been reading that book. today i read like the last 300 pages. it was good, fiction, compelling, literary, unfufilling ending. but i also havent left my house, which makes me feel unassociated w/ the world (a little) and good cause i needed it, i guess. but it takes place in highschool, senior year - a time that i would gladly erase from my memory. and she kind of nails it - like the 'friends' who stop talking to you / start talking to you again randomly thing. it makes me anxious about the world and my world and the election and my friends and family and shit. hmm.
also, i've been having this reoccurance of aquaintances from highschool finding me on facebook. and like, really, i was super unpopular and unliked then and these people who keep finding me were like popular and blond and shit. and im like why - really - dont you remember that i was this uncool queer druggy smart kid that you made fun of back then ? really ! you were cool and blond and now you are bored. leave me alone.
but i guess they dont. i guess it irritates me to have to think about those people from highschool when they find me, but i guess also, i'm glad that i'm not them where finding people i made fun of back then (me) on the internet is fun (reinventing, as if we were friends) . heh . probly i should go outside, huh?
also, i've been having this reoccurance of aquaintances from highschool finding me on facebook. and like, really, i was super unpopular and unliked then and these people who keep finding me were like popular and blond and shit. and im like why - really - dont you remember that i was this uncool queer druggy smart kid that you made fun of back then ? really ! you were cool and blond and now you are bored. leave me alone.
but i guess they dont. i guess it irritates me to have to think about those people from highschool when they find me, but i guess also, i'm glad that i'm not them where finding people i made fun of back then (me) on the internet is fun (reinventing, as if we were friends) . heh . probly i should go outside, huh?