February 4th 2004
An essay: Why I Love My Life @ 12:57 am
* i heart my friends, especially the core crew hardcore that I can be an idiot and they still heart me just the same.
* I am totally single, totally able to scheme, and I heart that lots too.
* Certain boys who want to be on my list of scandal and seduction of this week, yet I plan on keeping it cool and helping scheming friends along, cause hey, I scheme enough.
* I can waltz into work hours late and know I have major job security cause I do way more than anyone else there.
* Flattery gets you everywhere with me, and I do mean everywhere.
* I don't flirt, but when I do, it's good :)
* I'm not dependent on anyone for happiness besides myself, and doggone it, I make myself pretty happy.
* Men in suits melt me.
* I see no man as off limits, girlfriend, married, whatever, if I want you bad enough, I will have you...most likely tho, I don't want you.
* Regrets, much like moderation, is for suckers.
* Matthew (not the ex) makes me smile lots.
* I enjoy eating Tapioca in my pajamas.
* I heart bad music and will sing it at the top of my lungs and not give a damn what people say.
* If you take time to email me at work I will write you lame Haikus.
* I heart bad bad lame jokes.
* I'm easily amused, yet easily distracted by better things.
*I'm way more arrogant than I think.
* Did I mention Matthew (not the ex) really makes me smile, especially with prospects of him coming back to Pgh for a Thursday night out, and in with me?
* I like the fact that I do not want him to since I'd rather be with my friends.
* I'm selfish and enjoy people with minds company compared to people in the stuipd factory.
* I prefer not to waste time on people who dont waste time on me, lesson learned the hardway, but still true.
* late night phone calls that end in major fits of laughter.
* the fucking stupid hot hot hot and did I mention hot king, I lust for him like no other.
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Eeeesh CRINGE alert but it was definitely true at the time! Some of it is still true. Most of it actually but damn I was sleazy.
Speaking of sleazy (not really) I still keep talking to Instadude but less flirty this last round, THANK GOD. I wish I wasnt so sketched out the screenshot of our convos or I'd just do that, but we were just bitching that the rent here is too damned high, but he is from here. then talked bout how we could live almost anywhere else (respectively NOT together) and have so much more. I am even too sketched out to even write what he does, but considering where he works (since I work there too) I am guessing he makes the same as I do if not upwards of 20K more (depending on experience). I do pretty okay myself. He also started sending me those quiz instagram things directly to me via message and I respond that way too. GOD WTF. I know if I am feeling slightly sketched out about this that it is bare mins SLIGHTLY SKETCH, if not more. Also I actually looked at his instagram follower thing and he has well over 1k followers and over 3k followings and he is all up in my stories so I feel flattered? I really hope he is dating someone and is just using this as random convo? UGH. I still cant bring myself to say anything about Paul but obviously at this point there is no need to and again, instadude is cool but not my type at all but why do I really hope I never have to bring up Paul, I guess I like the conversation of a well rounded person who is very different from me, and my life? Gah.
I didnt go to the gym tonight, but I went last night. My period arrived while working out, though I knew it was coming so hence me being about that couch life today since it drains all my energy, exercise be damned. I also slept 11 hours so that was great! The only thing that got done today was gluing up some necklaces, well things to make things into necklaces, which actually HAD been on my to do list for like a week so it is to-done.
I honestly dont even feel like making dinner either. I dont feel like even getting up to get water. I am drained to the extreme. I managed to get my laptop to do this at the very least, which needs to be done. My life actually has gotten busy enouogh that I cant write everyday which actually is a great thing, but I generally feel better writing in this than not. I think I havent had a truly garbage person day like this in a bit so it feels great! I go go go so much sometimes that I just can't. I do miss my energy from my 20s at the very least.
Alright, I gotta go, I did just get a rush etsy order but alas I can't mail it until Monday morning so I dont have to make it or pack it, hurrah!
xoxoxo
Jenn
* i heart my friends, especially the core crew hardcore that I can be an idiot and they still heart me just the same.
* I am totally single, totally able to scheme, and I heart that lots too.
* Certain boys who want to be on my list of scandal and seduction of this week, yet I plan on keeping it cool and helping scheming friends along, cause hey, I scheme enough.
* I can waltz into work hours late and know I have major job security cause I do way more than anyone else there.
* Flattery gets you everywhere with me, and I do mean everywhere.
* I don't flirt, but when I do, it's good :)
* I'm not dependent on anyone for happiness besides myself, and doggone it, I make myself pretty happy.
* Men in suits melt me.
* I see no man as off limits, girlfriend, married, whatever, if I want you bad enough, I will have you...most likely tho, I don't want you.
* Regrets, much like moderation, is for suckers.
* Matthew (not the ex) makes me smile lots.
* I enjoy eating Tapioca in my pajamas.
* I heart bad music and will sing it at the top of my lungs and not give a damn what people say.
* If you take time to email me at work I will write you lame Haikus.
* I heart bad bad lame jokes.
* I'm easily amused, yet easily distracted by better things.
*I'm way more arrogant than I think.
* Did I mention Matthew (not the ex) really makes me smile, especially with prospects of him coming back to Pgh for a Thursday night out, and in with me?
* I like the fact that I do not want him to since I'd rather be with my friends.
* I'm selfish and enjoy people with minds company compared to people in the stuipd factory.
* I prefer not to waste time on people who dont waste time on me, lesson learned the hardway, but still true.
* late night phone calls that end in major fits of laughter.
* the fucking stupid hot hot hot and did I mention hot king, I lust for him like no other.
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Eeeesh CRINGE alert but it was definitely true at the time! Some of it is still true. Most of it actually but damn I was sleazy.
Speaking of sleazy (not really) I still keep talking to Instadude but less flirty this last round, THANK GOD. I wish I wasnt so sketched out the screenshot of our convos or I'd just do that, but we were just bitching that the rent here is too damned high, but he is from here. then talked bout how we could live almost anywhere else (respectively NOT together) and have so much more. I am even too sketched out to even write what he does, but considering where he works (since I work there too) I am guessing he makes the same as I do if not upwards of 20K more (depending on experience). I do pretty okay myself. He also started sending me those quiz instagram things directly to me via message and I respond that way too. GOD WTF. I know if I am feeling slightly sketched out about this that it is bare mins SLIGHTLY SKETCH, if not more. Also I actually looked at his instagram follower thing and he has well over 1k followers and over 3k followings and he is all up in my stories so I feel flattered? I really hope he is dating someone and is just using this as random convo? UGH. I still cant bring myself to say anything about Paul but obviously at this point there is no need to and again, instadude is cool but not my type at all but why do I really hope I never have to bring up Paul, I guess I like the conversation of a well rounded person who is very different from me, and my life? Gah.
I didnt go to the gym tonight, but I went last night. My period arrived while working out, though I knew it was coming so hence me being about that couch life today since it drains all my energy, exercise be damned. I also slept 11 hours so that was great! The only thing that got done today was gluing up some necklaces, well things to make things into necklaces, which actually HAD been on my to do list for like a week so it is to-done.
I honestly dont even feel like making dinner either. I dont feel like even getting up to get water. I am drained to the extreme. I managed to get my laptop to do this at the very least, which needs to be done. My life actually has gotten busy enouogh that I cant write everyday which actually is a great thing, but I generally feel better writing in this than not. I think I havent had a truly garbage person day like this in a bit so it feels great! I go go go so much sometimes that I just can't. I do miss my energy from my 20s at the very least.
Alright, I gotta go, I did just get a rush etsy order but alas I can't mail it until Monday morning so I dont have to make it or pack it, hurrah!
xoxoxo
Jenn