May 05, 2005 21:55
Wow life is so nuts right now. All of it. Justin Evan is dead. Its so weird, tomorrow is the funeral. I knew it was going to happen but now that it did I just dont know what to think. Got a phone call today while at Jenna's house. Matt's friend Mike died up in Missouri. Same way, DAMN BIKES! I really dont think I can get on another one. I use to ride on Justin's. I feel like it should of been me. NOT HIM! I dont know it all seems fake. Like I need to wake up from this nightmare. My bro lraves for Iraqui (cant spell) really soon. I hope I can go to New York. I really need a vaction from this all.
Happy thoughts though, Chris and I are a couple now. He's so sweet. I really think he's a keeper. Graduating in less then 2 weeks. One more day of school for me (I wont be there tomorrow) Got Gold Seal (75% scholarship)