i need to breathe
i have a guest staying with me and rj right now and things have taken a(n (un)expected(?)) turn for the worst. i can't wait till he leaves. i need to breathe freely. i'm ready to NOT be a parent for a while. i've inherited the Madriaga worry gene from my mother which comes from her mother before her and her mother before her. and i feel it tightening and constraining my stomach. i know i'm not ready for that kind of responsibility, to have to take care of someone else besides myself and rj, which is already a stretch. i'm counting down to tuesday, or sooner...