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the passage of time is long. the trials and tribulations have been challenging. mountains have grown and some have fallen, the great winds of change blow from every direction and i can sense the end is near. time passes much faster than we could ever hope to catch. it beats out the greatest distances of the imagination and the deepest darkest depths, time is the greatest advesary and ally any growing and evolving individual.
i look around this empty room with fading memories and wonder whether or not i ought to regret what has or hasn't happened. missed opportunities will only ever come once in a lifetime, the catch is that you wont catch onto it until the rest of your life has come. i wonder, how does one determine when the rest of their life has begun the the present life they had once been living ends? we will only ever know a constant stream of The Now, it is ever changing and unrelenting in its many adversities but they are challenges and scenerios which can only ever be faced, triumphed and/or defeated one day at time. thats the beauty in life, it happens one day at a time, from the time it starts to the time it ends and there is nothing anyone can do to change that, not that i think anyone ever would. life is hard, for everyone and for a million different reasons, but what makes us all unique and beautiful is how we choose to deal with it. we learn from mistakes made in the process and ideally become strong, cool-headed and capable individuals...hopefully.
the thing about life that makes it so friggin tricky is its infinate possibilities and unexpected twists; when you add a whole nother living, breathing, pondering entity life becomes that much more complicated, add a community and its amplified. problems are as ubiquitous as they are troublesome. my problem is that i've been so caught up in my own problems the problems of my family that i havent taken the time to realize the problems of my girlfriend. she deserves better than what i've given her and im trying very hard to change my ways. she holds my heart and my soul in the palm of her hand and has the ablitity to destroy my entire foundation with her breath. she is delicate and smart and her eyes are like an ocean sunset...why would i ever mistreat someone with such profound power over me? just stupid i guess.
i look around this empty room with fading memories and wonder whether or not i ought to regret what has or hasn't happened. missed opportunities will only ever come once in a lifetime, the catch is that you wont catch onto it until the rest of your life has come. i wonder, how does one determine when the rest of their life has begun the the present life they had once been living ends? we will only ever know a constant stream of The Now, it is ever changing and unrelenting in its many adversities but they are challenges and scenerios which can only ever be faced, triumphed and/or defeated one day at time. thats the beauty in life, it happens one day at a time, from the time it starts to the time it ends and there is nothing anyone can do to change that, not that i think anyone ever would. life is hard, for everyone and for a million different reasons, but what makes us all unique and beautiful is how we choose to deal with it. we learn from mistakes made in the process and ideally become strong, cool-headed and capable individuals...hopefully.
the thing about life that makes it so friggin tricky is its infinate possibilities and unexpected twists; when you add a whole nother living, breathing, pondering entity life becomes that much more complicated, add a community and its amplified. problems are as ubiquitous as they are troublesome. my problem is that i've been so caught up in my own problems the problems of my family that i havent taken the time to realize the problems of my girlfriend. she deserves better than what i've given her and im trying very hard to change my ways. she holds my heart and my soul in the palm of her hand and has the ablitity to destroy my entire foundation with her breath. she is delicate and smart and her eyes are like an ocean sunset...why would i ever mistreat someone with such profound power over me? just stupid i guess.