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i am taking a break from the day. the day today is a hot day, indeed. and on this day i wonder weather i will ever find someone i can keep. it is funny to think that for the past two years i have loved and lost twice...funny indeed. i think i ought to stear away from any sort of feelings towards anyone unless they are completely plutonic for a very long, long time.
i have often wondered whether a person could fall in love more than once. i think i know the answer. a person will only ever have that single person who makes everything and anything all right. that single person that leaves you speechless, breathless, and hopelessly lost in an array of emotions beyond anything they have ever felt before. that person who, when you think about them, no matter what time of day, what you're doing, where you are, you smile a simple, happy smile and you can somehow get through the rest of the day walking to a different beat.
and then there will be others. others you will love just as deeply, but profoundly differently. it can happen, falling in love more than once. For each time, you are in fact in a different time. you are a different person, there is no single individual who is the same person they were one year ago. hell, many people get just a little different each day. but learn to live and grow from every experience, good or bad, and eventually end up walking away different, yet somehow better people because of it. there is no way to describe it, to fully understand, someone has to live it. either way, when all is said and done, love is pure bliss when its good, and pure shit when its bad...and im about to begin my second year of having a 'bad' love. heh, maybe someday i'll learn who to love...but can someone really control who they fall in love with?
i have often wondered whether a person could fall in love more than once. i think i know the answer. a person will only ever have that single person who makes everything and anything all right. that single person that leaves you speechless, breathless, and hopelessly lost in an array of emotions beyond anything they have ever felt before. that person who, when you think about them, no matter what time of day, what you're doing, where you are, you smile a simple, happy smile and you can somehow get through the rest of the day walking to a different beat.
and then there will be others. others you will love just as deeply, but profoundly differently. it can happen, falling in love more than once. For each time, you are in fact in a different time. you are a different person, there is no single individual who is the same person they were one year ago. hell, many people get just a little different each day. but learn to live and grow from every experience, good or bad, and eventually end up walking away different, yet somehow better people because of it. there is no way to describe it, to fully understand, someone has to live it. either way, when all is said and done, love is pure bliss when its good, and pure shit when its bad...and im about to begin my second year of having a 'bad' love. heh, maybe someday i'll learn who to love...but can someone really control who they fall in love with?