169 // our dreams, left like children by the wayside
Had a really long, good talk with my mom tonight. At one point she told me some things about the night that left me humbled and speechless.
She and Dad had some friends over tonight, and one brought her 8-year-old daughter Masha. Mom says she reminds everyone a lot of me as a kid, so they pulled out old pictures of me at her age and were looking at them. Masha came up while they were doing this and looked at my picture and said, "Oh, she's so beautiful!" That left me speechless.
Then Mom said that they pulled out a picture of me dancing. And Masha said, "Oh look, she's dancing!" And Mom said that yes, I used to love to dance around all the time. Masha said, "Does she still dance?"
And the question...just struck me as incredibly profound. She meant it literally, but... it's such a deep question. And it really made me think about myself, about who I've been the past couple months, even in the last year. I mean I have had really, really wonderful, happy moments, but I have also allowed myself to get really bogged down by the heavy moments.
I just...want to remember this.
She and Dad had some friends over tonight, and one brought her 8-year-old daughter Masha. Mom says she reminds everyone a lot of me as a kid, so they pulled out old pictures of me at her age and were looking at them. Masha came up while they were doing this and looked at my picture and said, "Oh, she's so beautiful!" That left me speechless.
Then Mom said that they pulled out a picture of me dancing. And Masha said, "Oh look, she's dancing!" And Mom said that yes, I used to love to dance around all the time. Masha said, "Does she still dance?"
And the question...just struck me as incredibly profound. She meant it literally, but... it's such a deep question. And it really made me think about myself, about who I've been the past couple months, even in the last year. I mean I have had really, really wonderful, happy moments, but I have also allowed myself to get really bogged down by the heavy moments.
I just...want to remember this.