Skinny Love
So, these last few months have been an incredible learning experience. I do not really know where to begin. School is completely insane. I knew that it would be, but there's nothing that could prepare me for this. The closer finals get the more stressed and overwhelmed I feel. But I'm also totally exhilirated. I am learning so many different things, living in such a different environment, and meeting all sorts of different people. It's like living an entirely different life sometimes. Sometimes it's odd when I come home; it's so comfortable and familiar, and yet it feels different.
I've been worrying about this change recently. It's almost as though there are two different parts of me warring against each other. I've been fighting so hard against change and worrying that it's too late to prevent it. What if, no matter how hard I resist, and no matter how much I want certain things to stay the same...they just can't? What happens then? Do I just throw my hands up and give in to this potential inevitability? Or is nothing really inevitable? Part of me thinks that there is no way to really know for sure; I'll just have to wait until I come out the other side to see if everything looks different.
I've been struggling. I need to get back on track. I can't let the stress get to me the way it has been. Focus on school because that is the only thing I can worry about right now.
I've been worrying about this change recently. It's almost as though there are two different parts of me warring against each other. I've been fighting so hard against change and worrying that it's too late to prevent it. What if, no matter how hard I resist, and no matter how much I want certain things to stay the same...they just can't? What happens then? Do I just throw my hands up and give in to this potential inevitability? Or is nothing really inevitable? Part of me thinks that there is no way to really know for sure; I'll just have to wait until I come out the other side to see if everything looks different.
I've been struggling. I need to get back on track. I can't let the stress get to me the way it has been. Focus on school because that is the only thing I can worry about right now.