2 DAYS!!!!!
2 days til I see Bruce!!!! I don't think anyone really understands how much this man means to me. I'm ready to be done with this school crap so I can start my life, my career, and be able to have everything instead of sacrificing so many important things to me for a degree I don't even want.
I think I might want my degree if I had any idea what was going on in my classes. For the first time in my life I'm the dumb confused one who just wants to throw in the towel. I've always been the smart one, the person others came to to get the answer or for help, and now I'm the one who needs help, but I don't know how to get it or what to do, or more importantly how to push my pride aside to get it.
I dislike my classes soooo much and feel soooo completely clueless, that I'm even considering changing my major, I don't think I'm gonna be able to pass many of my classes this semester so I might have to. It just makes me so sad to do that, because that's only dragging out the amount of time I have to stay here, and how long I have to be away from best friend. But I'd rather graduate with a degree I was confident in and had some sort of understanding and a decent GPA to get a real job. So what do I do? I don't know. I'm confused, lost, depressed, and feel completely alone sometimes, like I'm the only person who feels this way. I just want to be with my man so he can make everything better, somehow he always does.
This weekend is going to be wonderful, I can hardly wait to see his beautiful face and fall deep into his loving arms so I can feel home again. Last weekend I was here all by myself and didn't do anything, and the weekend before that I only went out once, so I'm ready to have some fun, and be able to truly relax and enjoy myself. Oh.... and finally be able to get some ass!!! :)
I think I might want my degree if I had any idea what was going on in my classes. For the first time in my life I'm the dumb confused one who just wants to throw in the towel. I've always been the smart one, the person others came to to get the answer or for help, and now I'm the one who needs help, but I don't know how to get it or what to do, or more importantly how to push my pride aside to get it.
I dislike my classes soooo much and feel soooo completely clueless, that I'm even considering changing my major, I don't think I'm gonna be able to pass many of my classes this semester so I might have to. It just makes me so sad to do that, because that's only dragging out the amount of time I have to stay here, and how long I have to be away from best friend. But I'd rather graduate with a degree I was confident in and had some sort of understanding and a decent GPA to get a real job. So what do I do? I don't know. I'm confused, lost, depressed, and feel completely alone sometimes, like I'm the only person who feels this way. I just want to be with my man so he can make everything better, somehow he always does.
This weekend is going to be wonderful, I can hardly wait to see his beautiful face and fall deep into his loving arms so I can feel home again. Last weekend I was here all by myself and didn't do anything, and the weekend before that I only went out once, so I'm ready to have some fun, and be able to truly relax and enjoy myself. Oh.... and finally be able to get some ass!!! :)