Life Deferred
I remember wasting time taking this little facebook test.
One of the questions that called out was something along the lines of perspective of life.
One of the answer was something like: "Life is all about the happiness one can derive out of it, if one can't get happiness then there's really no reason to live."
For some reason I can't seem to shake off a few pre-ocupations I currently have. Recently my mood has quite changed negatively and there's many things occuring that just add to the anxiety. Currently, I'm with in my parents house and can't help but feel this feeling of alienation from my parents and my sisters. I even feel that I can't even relate well with my old friends, although in reality I haven't even gotten much in touch with them. Returning to the island seems to only make me feel that I have some sort of love-hate situation to it; although one thing is I'm beginning to wonder what is beyond the metropolitan zone. Maybe one day I will return with friends and venture out of the metropolitan zone, taking a scenic route perhaps, in a journey to Ponce (a historical city in Puerto Rico I never visited).
I've set up some goals, which incidentally adds to anxiety over fears of not accomplishing them, for myself for this summer (at least when I'm in Puerto Rico). They are pretty simple:
1)Get Accutane treatment once more (for June-July) plus a minor superficial surgery.
2)Lose Weight
3) Get a Job (Maybe for the rest of Summer, but I must get one for the semester)
The other goals are less important but they are:
4) Read up on things related to runing an activist organization, SDS-related stuff, etc.
5) Read and Write ("expand and/or exercise one's intellectual horizons")
Well, I guess my trip to Florence is quite a nice reprive from my family and something that would give me some joy back in my life.
One of the questions that called out was something along the lines of perspective of life.
One of the answer was something like: "Life is all about the happiness one can derive out of it, if one can't get happiness then there's really no reason to live."
For some reason I can't seem to shake off a few pre-ocupations I currently have. Recently my mood has quite changed negatively and there's many things occuring that just add to the anxiety. Currently, I'm with in my parents house and can't help but feel this feeling of alienation from my parents and my sisters. I even feel that I can't even relate well with my old friends, although in reality I haven't even gotten much in touch with them. Returning to the island seems to only make me feel that I have some sort of love-hate situation to it; although one thing is I'm beginning to wonder what is beyond the metropolitan zone. Maybe one day I will return with friends and venture out of the metropolitan zone, taking a scenic route perhaps, in a journey to Ponce (a historical city in Puerto Rico I never visited).
I've set up some goals, which incidentally adds to anxiety over fears of not accomplishing them, for myself for this summer (at least when I'm in Puerto Rico). They are pretty simple:
1)Get Accutane treatment once more (for June-July) plus a minor superficial surgery.
2)Lose Weight
3) Get a Job (Maybe for the rest of Summer, but I must get one for the semester)
The other goals are less important but they are:
4) Read up on things related to runing an activist organization, SDS-related stuff, etc.
5) Read and Write ("expand and/or exercise one's intellectual horizons")
Well, I guess my trip to Florence is quite a nice reprive from my family and something that would give me some joy back in my life.