OHS class of 2000 (x posted to myspace)
i just spent another night going through myspace profiles of people from my high school. why do i do this? who am i looking for? what am i looking for? am i piecing together parts of my past? location: that little smudge nestled between farms in southern minnesota. self: somewhat quiet [doesn't-quite-know-she's] queer girl confused and unsure why she just doesn't fit in and why the hell no one likes her. waiting: a few months more and i'd find myself out of owatonna, out on my own, out in the "world" and out..... you get the picture. i look through these pictures of people who shared the same walls with me at a specific time and i'm always amazed at how similar so many of them are. so many drunken group pictures. so many babies... weddings. people in a desert with guns. people in the woods with guns. people on vacation. attempts at something artistic, varying in degrees of effectiveness. cars. stock internet pictures. i know i join them. i know that on so many levels we are the same. however, we are simultaneously so different. perhaps the reason looking back on high school is so different for me than college is that i don't really know anyone from that part of my life anymore. i have no one to remind me of who i was then. maybe that's what i'm looking for: another source to compile a portrait.