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so I am fine with the adderall in that I haven't had any weird physical side effects but also I am having crazy mood swings. like, I am bursting into tears over ridiculous things. library book is overdue! boy has not returned text! THERE IS A HOLE IN MY SOCK OH MY LIFE IS OVER.
at the same time I am so productive it is a little bit silly. maybe I will put up with being emotionally unbalanced until I am done with college apps? maybe that would be a terrible idea? I don't know?
also I am really, really conflicted about applying to wesleyan now. they waitlisted my cousin. my cousin with the 4.0 GPA and 1600 SATs and huge amounts of talent. I mean, maybe there is something in the "well you will not know until you try!" mentality, but not in this case. it would be a lot of stress for nothing at all, probably. whatever.
at the same time I am so productive it is a little bit silly. maybe I will put up with being emotionally unbalanced until I am done with college apps? maybe that would be a terrible idea? I don't know?
also I am really, really conflicted about applying to wesleyan now. they waitlisted my cousin. my cousin with the 4.0 GPA and 1600 SATs and huge amounts of talent. I mean, maybe there is something in the "well you will not know until you try!" mentality, but not in this case. it would be a lot of stress for nothing at all, probably. whatever.