The simple days that seemed so tough.
Wow, I haven't seen this "update journal" page in a long time. Life is alright, I mean for what I'm doing with myself (or not doing with myself really) I'm happy. Even though I failed out of school, even though I won't get funded ever again, even though my parents and I don't get along like we used too, even though I don't have a fulltime job (yet), even though things are sometimes, if not mostly, rocky with B, even though I don't know what to do with any of this... I'm happy. I can smile and not feel guilty. That's something special.
In 12 days B and I will reach the 6 month mark. Half a year... about 180 days. He was gone to Cali for 10 days... meaning we've been together for 170 days straight, give or take. That looks like so much but feels like nothing... like it hasn't been that long.
In 12 days I move from 171 Lees to 180 Lees. I guess you could say that in 12 days my life starts a new chapter... again. If I could predict the next little while I'd; have a fulltime job for the summer, find another fulltime job for the fall, save money for rent and a new computer, save more money for college, go out with friends every weekend, fall even more in love, and spend some weekends with my parents.
In big news, Jenn and I have been talking and hanging out more... I feel like now I have such a connection with my past... even as far back as grade 8. I miss those old times... silly pre-pubescent thoughts. Those were the simple days that seemed so tough.
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Edit** I just looked out my window and realized the cars on the highway are driving a lot faster today.
In 12 days B and I will reach the 6 month mark. Half a year... about 180 days. He was gone to Cali for 10 days... meaning we've been together for 170 days straight, give or take. That looks like so much but feels like nothing... like it hasn't been that long.
In 12 days I move from 171 Lees to 180 Lees. I guess you could say that in 12 days my life starts a new chapter... again. If I could predict the next little while I'd; have a fulltime job for the summer, find another fulltime job for the fall, save money for rent and a new computer, save more money for college, go out with friends every weekend, fall even more in love, and spend some weekends with my parents.
In big news, Jenn and I have been talking and hanging out more... I feel like now I have such a connection with my past... even as far back as grade 8. I miss those old times... silly pre-pubescent thoughts. Those were the simple days that seemed so tough.
F
Edit** I just looked out my window and realized the cars on the highway are driving a lot faster today.