ohklahoma!!
hey everyone the play is going really great and its really fun but theres been sooo much drama lately !oh wells im trying to get used to my new hair it looks like crap today but everyone here loved it at manness .im glad i missed my voice lesson bec the stupid trains were all messed up and shit ..well my heart still feels like its tearing apart as i trry to move on ...*2 days ago i was on the train coming home from a theary lesson at manness and wial i was waiting for the train there were couples everywhere around me and there all in love and smiling and kissing and hugging ..by the time the train came i was crying , crying bec thats were i could have been ..i could have been happy ,i could have been with someone and not be alone ...-and yesterday in my theater class the teacher was just tellings the things we needed to improve on for the next night and i just had a nevouse brake down and started crying ..i think that it was bec i was trying so hard to convince myself that im over me and jose ,and all i was doing was pushing all my feelings back and i couldnt take it anymore everyone was asking what was wrong but i dont like opening up so i just stayed silent and cryed on their shoulders ..lately ive been going thru some really bad depression and sometimes i just cant stop eating ( soy ice cream ,and organic pasta ) and ill just sit there eating and crying and watching t.v yeah its not a pretty pic .but thats the way life has been treating me .but ill get thru this i kno i will ill just drown my self with work ( modeling ) and the sat's.i love my hair but i hate everything thats going around me ...... ill drown ppls voices with my cd player thats like my baby if anyone touches my baby or my hair i will kill u !!!tee hee well g2g i have a class and then im going home to get ready 4 ooooooooooooklahomaaa!!!wish me luck ....