i feel sick
an update, I suppose...
right now i feel extremely sick to my stomach and even more so in my heart.
lasagna and love can do that to a girl, I suppose. "I suppose." I've been saying that a lot lately. It's like I don't really have a definite opinion on anything.
i really like living alone, but i've never felt my utter loneliness so absolutely like i do these days.
sometimes i wonder if it's me that's causing my own loneliness, or if there's just something wrong with me. am i not pretty enough, smart enough, witty enough? am i too picky? not picky enough?
i can't figure out what it is that is causing me to be so terminally alone.
i want to fall in love. it's the number one thing on my very short list of things left to make me the happiest i've ever been in my life.
right now, (since no one ever asked, i'll tell you anyway) i feel like, on a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being the happiest, i'm about an 8.
there are maybe 5 things that i can think of that could bump that up to a 10.
but i'll probably be stuck at an 8 for the rest of my life.
*sigh*
right now i feel extremely sick to my stomach and even more so in my heart.
lasagna and love can do that to a girl, I suppose. "I suppose." I've been saying that a lot lately. It's like I don't really have a definite opinion on anything.
i really like living alone, but i've never felt my utter loneliness so absolutely like i do these days.
sometimes i wonder if it's me that's causing my own loneliness, or if there's just something wrong with me. am i not pretty enough, smart enough, witty enough? am i too picky? not picky enough?
i can't figure out what it is that is causing me to be so terminally alone.
i want to fall in love. it's the number one thing on my very short list of things left to make me the happiest i've ever been in my life.
right now, (since no one ever asked, i'll tell you anyway) i feel like, on a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being the happiest, i'm about an 8.
there are maybe 5 things that i can think of that could bump that up to a 10.
but i'll probably be stuck at an 8 for the rest of my life.
*sigh*