this is a test of the emergency broadcast system...
i got here nearly a half an hour early this morning. such a shame. i suppose i should invest in a watch sometimes soon. or pay more attention to when i get up in the morning. maybe that is the universe telling me that i should wear makeup or something. since i obviously have the time.
this weekend was dissapointing to say the least. it feels like i do not get that much time off, and when i do things like that happen. i suppose it was good because i should spend more time with my family. i do not know why yet, but something tells me it is a good thing. even though i do not feel it is good for me. and i do not see how my presence is good for them. who knows... i suppose i just have this "leave it to beaver" idea of it all. my stomach aches, i do not know why. so, saturday i went to my cousin's wedding shower. fuck! everyone is getting married lately! as seen by my previous post. and i just cannot help but think that i ain't the marrying type. i really do not want to get married the more i think about it. i think i just want someone to rescue me, like in pretty woman. although i do not care if my prince shows up in a limo or brings me flowers. anyway... my cousin is kind of a bitch, and her fiance's family did not really speak to us, not did his mother remember my name (even though we were wearing nametags)... "what's her name?" "turn around!" and it sucked because my grandmother, aunt, and cousins did not even show up. so, i felt very sharks and jets about the whole thing. i called a couple of people, but nothing... and then i realized that that was fate probably telling me that nothing was going to happen this weekend in the "me having fun" respect. and no one called me (and i do not mean that in the oh woe is me sort of way) but it further emphasized the previous point. i did get to see kill bill, which i loved. i think i need to see it again though. i keep thinking how i like the first one better, and i think i probably missed some stuff from the second one. although, i love her sifu in the second one. he is classic. so, that was cool and the gang. and the new season of queer as folk started! it is about damn time! i am so excited because it looks like lots of interesting things will happen. i am addicted to that show even more now that sex & the city is over.
so, i felt super crazy yesterday. sometimes reality is difficult for me to take. that is probably quite obvious. so, i should stop writing so cryptically. it makes little to no sense, and probably is not even interesting to read. as can be seen by lack of comments as of late. i will start writing about things that are real... and seeing as nothing much ever happens to me... probably will not be updating as much. wow, i think i almost heard a sigh of relief coming through the computer. hehe.
because i am beginning to sicken of myself too. hmmm...
this weekend was dissapointing to say the least. it feels like i do not get that much time off, and when i do things like that happen. i suppose it was good because i should spend more time with my family. i do not know why yet, but something tells me it is a good thing. even though i do not feel it is good for me. and i do not see how my presence is good for them. who knows... i suppose i just have this "leave it to beaver" idea of it all. my stomach aches, i do not know why. so, saturday i went to my cousin's wedding shower. fuck! everyone is getting married lately! as seen by my previous post. and i just cannot help but think that i ain't the marrying type. i really do not want to get married the more i think about it. i think i just want someone to rescue me, like in pretty woman. although i do not care if my prince shows up in a limo or brings me flowers. anyway... my cousin is kind of a bitch, and her fiance's family did not really speak to us, not did his mother remember my name (even though we were wearing nametags)... "what's her name?" "turn around!" and it sucked because my grandmother, aunt, and cousins did not even show up. so, i felt very sharks and jets about the whole thing. i called a couple of people, but nothing... and then i realized that that was fate probably telling me that nothing was going to happen this weekend in the "me having fun" respect. and no one called me (and i do not mean that in the oh woe is me sort of way) but it further emphasized the previous point. i did get to see kill bill, which i loved. i think i need to see it again though. i keep thinking how i like the first one better, and i think i probably missed some stuff from the second one. although, i love her sifu in the second one. he is classic. so, that was cool and the gang. and the new season of queer as folk started! it is about damn time! i am so excited because it looks like lots of interesting things will happen. i am addicted to that show even more now that sex & the city is over.
so, i felt super crazy yesterday. sometimes reality is difficult for me to take. that is probably quite obvious. so, i should stop writing so cryptically. it makes little to no sense, and probably is not even interesting to read. as can be seen by lack of comments as of late. i will start writing about things that are real... and seeing as nothing much ever happens to me... probably will not be updating as much. wow, i think i almost heard a sigh of relief coming through the computer. hehe.
because i am beginning to sicken of myself too. hmmm...