Topic:
so here's something that bothers me, and I've wanted to bring it up on the internet for a while now, but unfortunately I am unreasonably lazy when it comes to anything that isn't building my shrine to bendis (complete with hairdoll!).
you have two people. these can be any two people. in fact, let me take the time to point out that what I'm about to get into is merely the best example of a much broader train of though, this is just the best example. so no, this is not my subconscious way of talking about someone in particular, any likeness to any real persons living or dead is purely coincidental etc. okay so. two people these two people have a particular connection a particular dynamic between them. these two people like being around each other. these two people can be any two people: friends, lovers, spouses, life partners, whatever, so long as they care for each other. now, to the point that bothers me. see, it is difficult for me to understand why this energy between two parties can change so drastically so quickly. I understand how. I understand the means to the end, the cause to the effect. what I don't understand is why. why is it that in some cases, one action, hell - one word can not only completely delete this energy, but in a lot of extreme cases totally reverse it? it's beyond the capability of even my vast and powerful brainsphere to truly understand why it can be so simple for something like that to happen. really the main point I want to make is that I fucking hate it. I hate looking back on times I spent with people, all different types of people, and finding myself unable to think of the good memories I shared with these people. it's like as soon as that energy is gone the good and the happy memories are gutted and dumped in the waste basket like the insides of so many halloween pumpkins.
you have two people. these can be any two people. in fact, let me take the time to point out that what I'm about to get into is merely the best example of a much broader train of though, this is just the best example. so no, this is not my subconscious way of talking about someone in particular, any likeness to any real persons living or dead is purely coincidental etc. okay so. two people these two people have a particular connection a particular dynamic between them. these two people like being around each other. these two people can be any two people: friends, lovers, spouses, life partners, whatever, so long as they care for each other. now, to the point that bothers me. see, it is difficult for me to understand why this energy between two parties can change so drastically so quickly. I understand how. I understand the means to the end, the cause to the effect. what I don't understand is why. why is it that in some cases, one action, hell - one word can not only completely delete this energy, but in a lot of extreme cases totally reverse it? it's beyond the capability of even my vast and powerful brainsphere to truly understand why it can be so simple for something like that to happen. really the main point I want to make is that I fucking hate it. I hate looking back on times I spent with people, all different types of people, and finding myself unable to think of the good memories I shared with these people. it's like as soon as that energy is gone the good and the happy memories are gutted and dumped in the waste basket like the insides of so many halloween pumpkins.