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I'm still young right?
and this isn't the worst thing that's ever going to happen to me,
right?
So, I've been thinking a lot about my mother recently.
and I've decided that it would be really, really nice to have a memory of her.
right now the only "memories" I have come from other people.
I have stories about her, but no actual memory.
When I picture her in my mind, it's only a photograph.
So, I've been thinking a lot about my mother recently.
and I wondered about memory.
I was 1 1/2 when she died.
well before any formative memory.
but
I think there are people out there that help you remember things,
things you forgot.
do you think they can work with memories from a 1 1/2 year old?
is this even a thought worth pursuing?
I really just want something real
something real about her.
I wear her ring on my finger, everyday.
despite the fact that it is broken
(and has been for over 2 years)
I wear it.
When I really need to feel her I also wear her dogtag.
It's a little disturbing, but I feel like the dogtag is our closest connection.
I wear my part around my neck.
she wears hers around her toe.
is that a bad thing to think?
I don't feel like it is.
It makes me feel close to her.
and it's weird, thinking I can be close to her.
I don't even know her,
but all I want, is one single memory,
one picture in my head,
that belongs to me.
So, how viable is this option of recovering lost memories?
and this isn't the worst thing that's ever going to happen to me,
right?
So, I've been thinking a lot about my mother recently.
and I've decided that it would be really, really nice to have a memory of her.
right now the only "memories" I have come from other people.
I have stories about her, but no actual memory.
When I picture her in my mind, it's only a photograph.
So, I've been thinking a lot about my mother recently.
and I wondered about memory.
I was 1 1/2 when she died.
well before any formative memory.
but
I think there are people out there that help you remember things,
things you forgot.
do you think they can work with memories from a 1 1/2 year old?
is this even a thought worth pursuing?
I really just want something real
something real about her.
I wear her ring on my finger, everyday.
despite the fact that it is broken
(and has been for over 2 years)
I wear it.
When I really need to feel her I also wear her dogtag.
It's a little disturbing, but I feel like the dogtag is our closest connection.
I wear my part around my neck.
she wears hers around her toe.
is that a bad thing to think?
I don't feel like it is.
It makes me feel close to her.
and it's weird, thinking I can be close to her.
I don't even know her,
but all I want, is one single memory,
one picture in my head,
that belongs to me.
So, how viable is this option of recovering lost memories?