saddest girl this side of the mason dixon line
I just said goodbye to my grandma. She's moving back to Indiana this weekend and I'll be in Carrollton working. I suppose it's better this way. We would cry a lot more if I were there when she were actually leaving. At least this way I know she's still in georgia for the next few days.
It takes everything I have not to drive back over there. I'm going to miss her so much.
she's just....always been there. My whole life.
she took me in at 5 years old and has been raising me ever since.
and again, the crying. I hate crying.
the thing I hate is that she feels responsible for moving and making me sad, when any rational person can see that it's actually my dad's fault.
it's going to be a while before I forgive him for this.
I don't want her to go. I wish I had a house and then I would make her live with me. She would.
It's better this way. She'll be happier there, she's got friends her own age, she lived there most of her life (save the 10 years here in georgia), that's her home, her roots, her life. She's still got children up there, she can get to church easier, etc. etc. etc.
none of it makes me feel any better.
I just don't know how to live with her being so far away. I don't have a mommy, but it was always okay because god gave me grandma.
I need a drink.
It takes everything I have not to drive back over there. I'm going to miss her so much.
she's just....always been there. My whole life.
she took me in at 5 years old and has been raising me ever since.
and again, the crying. I hate crying.
the thing I hate is that she feels responsible for moving and making me sad, when any rational person can see that it's actually my dad's fault.
it's going to be a while before I forgive him for this.
I don't want her to go. I wish I had a house and then I would make her live with me. She would.
It's better this way. She'll be happier there, she's got friends her own age, she lived there most of her life (save the 10 years here in georgia), that's her home, her roots, her life. She's still got children up there, she can get to church easier, etc. etc. etc.
none of it makes me feel any better.
I just don't know how to live with her being so far away. I don't have a mommy, but it was always okay because god gave me grandma.
I need a drink.