Starless
A while ago I realized that I was missing a star from my belt. A little metal star, near the back right side. And I started thinking that it was a metaphor for my life right now. Everything is ok, but something is missing. My job is fine, I am doing okay in school, my friends are great (for the most part). But I am not truly happy. I go to a lot of parties and bars. I just feel like I am tagging along with my friends and their girlfriends. Or its guys night out (which I dont really need, bc its not like I have this suffocating girlfriend that I need space from). I know this sounds like a cry for help, but its not. I know I am a good looking guy, and I have had some opportunities.. But I guess I am just too picky. I know that people say that you just have to wait, and that the right one will come along. I just feel that maybe I am not allowing that to happen. Maybe I am too closed off from society. I go out alot, but I am not going to want to meet someone at a bar. Bars are for drinking. A close friend of mine has been using those singles websites and getting taken out on dates all the time (everything paid for). She has literally hundreds of replies every day... I just think this is odd. What do you think?