boys and girls
i've been writing a lot in here lately. i usually don't like writing in here, but i have a lot on my mind i need to get out. i started writing it on paper, but my hand would start hurting after like... a sentence. so thanks lj, for not making my hand hurt... anyways
so the friend-boytoy and i are no longer anything, of course friends, but we're not hooking up and i'm not sleeping over there anymore. he wanted to end things friday night, after an entire night of being an asshole to me, then we talked it out and he agreed to stay with me, but continued to not talk to me for the rest of the weekend. finally i told him today (technically yesterday, monday) that he was right and we should end things, and he was like "uh ok we're over" and that was it.
sort of frustrating, but what can you do? right now i'm just upset and i feel like i'm mad at him, but i'm just mad at the situation and i know i'll still be friends with him. it just sucks it had to end this way. but it's not like a whole michael situation where things end up being horrible... so i'm thankful it's still all good.
and everything is starting to look up. i finally realized some girls are "cunts" and i need to let things go. thinking too much about my boy situation took my mind off the girl/friendship situation. so it's whatever; you give some you lose some.
other than that, i guess things are alright. i wish i had a boy, but not just any boy, i want the one i had this morning before we ended things. i want the boy i used to have; but that'll never happen agian...
so the friend-boytoy and i are no longer anything, of course friends, but we're not hooking up and i'm not sleeping over there anymore. he wanted to end things friday night, after an entire night of being an asshole to me, then we talked it out and he agreed to stay with me, but continued to not talk to me for the rest of the weekend. finally i told him today (technically yesterday, monday) that he was right and we should end things, and he was like "uh ok we're over" and that was it.
sort of frustrating, but what can you do? right now i'm just upset and i feel like i'm mad at him, but i'm just mad at the situation and i know i'll still be friends with him. it just sucks it had to end this way. but it's not like a whole michael situation where things end up being horrible... so i'm thankful it's still all good.
and everything is starting to look up. i finally realized some girls are "cunts" and i need to let things go. thinking too much about my boy situation took my mind off the girl/friendship situation. so it's whatever; you give some you lose some.
other than that, i guess things are alright. i wish i had a boy, but not just any boy, i want the one i had this morning before we ended things. i want the boy i used to have; but that'll never happen agian...