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That girl i've mentioned in my last couple of entries is starting to take a toll on my patience. I don't mean that the girl her self is wearing on my nerves but my lack of action is on my nerves. I think of all the things i could say or even do for that fact of a matter but i don't do them i just sit and get more and more annoyed with myself every day. When you've had a track record like mine though it makes you kind of wary of anything relationship related.Its not even to say that my problem is based on age thing either the fact that shes two years younger than me has absolutely nothing to do with any thing at all in this equation what so ever. It all has everything to do with track records and rejections and how things tend never to work out for the good in the end so i've never really had any good luck with girls so i really don't know what to do anymore. I'm very pensive about doing anything with girls because you know if you play with fire you tend to get burned and thats never any fun now is it? I should say not b/c who wants to get burned unless maybe you are a massacist or some shit like that which i most definitely not. Some of my friends are questionable though. Anyways i really like this girl and so on but i have absolutely nothing i can do about this situation about sit and stare and feel like a damn stalker. Which is a great feeling by the way if you've never had the pleasure of dealing with something like that. FYI that last line was just a complete crock of shit. I just wanna be like i like you and would you go out with me andall that happy horse shit. That however would only work out in a perfect world and unfortunately we don't live in a perfect world we live in a world and if i told a girl i liked her this would be her response to me "get away from me you freak i'd rather jump off a bridge" but such is my life as i've come to accept it. That doesn't mean i liked it though b/c i still wish icould do something about it.