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1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Meth, acid and lived out of my car.
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't even remember if I made any resolutions for this past year, but I know for damn fucking sure I've made ones for this year that are definitely going to test my strength and my willpower.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes...and some even got pregnant, including me.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
My moms friends sisters husband, Hub. He took me to a couple concerts when he was still living in CO.
5. What countries did you visit?
None...unless you count the ones that I visited while laying on my couch tripping mushrooms.
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
Freedom from meth, tweakers, drama, meat, dairy products and more sleep...also a better job.
7. What dates from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- Whenver in April/May when I got pregnant and had my abortion.
- May 27th, the first time I met Nate.
- June 26th, when Nate and I got together.
- September 1st, my 18th birthday.
- September 2nd, the day I got kicked out and kicked off my homelessness for the upcoming month or so and got my heart broken.
- October 7th, the day I moved back home(I've been here ever since).
- Every day inbetween...I can't put them all down, it'd take too long...but I'll never forget the aforementioned ones no matter how much I want to.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Quitting meth and coke and moving and -staying- back home.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Every.Fucking.Thing...but every fucking thing ended up being a success after a lot of effort and a lot of pain and shit.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Countless times being sick from all the shitty drugs, knots on my arms from shooting up said drugs which also left minor scars that have thankfully almost fully faded. I also have myself some nice meth sores and chemical burns variously places on my body and the cartiledge in my nose is hella worn down.
11. What was the best thing you bought/received?
My Nathan Lake.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Uhh...I don't know?
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My own at times...
14. Where did most of your money go?
Drugs.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Drugs.
16. What song(s) will always remind you of 2005?
hmm..
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? a little of both.
b) thinner or fatter? definitely thinner by 40 pounds. oi...all since the end of march.
c) richer or poorer? poorer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Not drugs.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Meth.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With Drew for the early morning hours, then with my family for the early morning/afternoon and finally I ended my day with Nate and we tripped our balls off, drank ourselves into a stupor...not to mention I ended up at the hospital with my mom because she couldn't breathe.
21. Did you fall in love in 2005?
Yes...for the last time, too.
22. How many one-night stands?
none
23. What was your favorite TV program?
Family Plots!
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no i still hate the same people. haha.
25. What was the best book you read?
The Celestine Prophecy, Einsteins Dreams and Clockwork Orange.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Modest Mouse
27. What did you want and get?
New shoes, my phone, home and family back.
28. What did you want and not get?
My Nathan Lake 'back'. . .
29. What were your favorite films of this year?
land of the dead, charlie and the chocolate factory and 40 year-old virgin
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I woke up at 4am, bought a pack of cigarettes on my own then did an 8ball of meth with Nate...all before 9am. Then the rest of the day sucked, I didn't see him again until later that night. I got my car registered and all that shit into my name, cleaned our room, did out laundry and threw up a lot. Then of course, resumed to put more speed up my nose, drive around littleton alone crying and miserable because Nate went to hang out with someone else.
It was awesome...hello, 18.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
The lack of meth.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Me.
33. What kept you sane?
Nate.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Carey Hart.
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
The fact George Bush is still in office and hasn't killed himself due to stupidity yet.
36. Who did you miss?
James...and I've missed Nate since September, even though I've seen him almost every day and almost nothing has really changed.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
Of course...my Nathan Lake.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
no matter how careful or how respectable you are in life, events that are out of your control will happen, sometimes very unjustly. you just have to take it one day at a time and you have to be very wary of who you trust and who you let trust you...and of course, it doesn't pay to fuck up relationships with anybody just for another fix.