Havent posted in awhile but here you go...
So...
Lots has changed.
I am seeing someone who my mom likes (Yeah, finally found someone she doesnt dislike). River is warming up to him a lot and that makes me extremely happy. He wants to be a part of her life, and be there for her. This makes my heart sing.
Shes getting so big now. She will be two in Feb. :)
My friends list has grown very short the past year or so. I'm OK with that. The few friends that I do have, actually stuck by me through the bad and the good.
There are some that I have lost that I do wish to try to mend things with. But I dont know if that will ever happen. I reacted badly and said things I shouldnt have and did things that were wrong. I know this now and I would like to make amends but if that cant happen, well, i guess thats how the cookie crumbles.
As I sit here and read back on this journal I turn red with embarrassment, smile at fond memories and sigh at drama long past.
I am working on getting my life together with someone who is supportive, with friends who care and love me even though I can have what they like to call "subscriptions".
Ive been through a lot the past year. Had an abusive boyfriend for 8 months but it is now over. I am moving on with my life and glad that I have someone who cares.
Maybe things will get better.
I go back on my medication this week. I hope this goes well.
I dont know if anyone even reads this anymore but if you do, I hope you are well.
Lots has changed.
I am seeing someone who my mom likes (Yeah, finally found someone she doesnt dislike). River is warming up to him a lot and that makes me extremely happy. He wants to be a part of her life, and be there for her. This makes my heart sing.
Shes getting so big now. She will be two in Feb. :)
My friends list has grown very short the past year or so. I'm OK with that. The few friends that I do have, actually stuck by me through the bad and the good.
There are some that I have lost that I do wish to try to mend things with. But I dont know if that will ever happen. I reacted badly and said things I shouldnt have and did things that were wrong. I know this now and I would like to make amends but if that cant happen, well, i guess thats how the cookie crumbles.
As I sit here and read back on this journal I turn red with embarrassment, smile at fond memories and sigh at drama long past.
I am working on getting my life together with someone who is supportive, with friends who care and love me even though I can have what they like to call "subscriptions".
Ive been through a lot the past year. Had an abusive boyfriend for 8 months but it is now over. I am moving on with my life and glad that I have someone who cares.
Maybe things will get better.
I go back on my medication this week. I hope this goes well.
I dont know if anyone even reads this anymore but if you do, I hope you are well.