A sigh of relief
I won't lie, the last couple of days have been torture. And yes, I guess you could say I brought in on myself. But after last night I know for sure that Matt and I will never fight over Jill again. And that makes me so happy.
At first I felt sorry for Jill when Matt and I first got together. I say this because a perfectly good relationship was ended on the account of me. I mean she didn't actually do anything wrong. But Matt and I belong together, we were made for each other, and we have been in love for the past two years at the time. And because of our own selfishness, an innocent bystander got hurt.
Then she made me mad. I guess I can simply attribute this to my jealousy. There is no other explanation for it. But the fact that Matt still talked to her enraged me. And after months of no conversation, no Jill in our lives. Here she is again with her little text message for no reason at all just attempting to get Matt's attention again. And I went off. And yes I'll agree that I stupid text message almost ended Matt and I. But it was the last straw, the one that broke the camels back.
So maybe the situation wasn't handled in the best manner. But from Friday until now Matt and I have successfully survived the most gruesome fight we've ever encountered. He has proved to me that he truly does love me more than anything else. And I have finally absolutely realized I could never ever get by without him.
I'm still sorry that we hurt Jill's feelings, or at least both of us perceive that we did. But because of that we each are with our soulmate and I wouldn't give that up for anything in this world.
On the 100th day before our wedding, every single doubt I had about marrying Matt was swept away. And that truly was an absolutely beautiful feeling.
At first I felt sorry for Jill when Matt and I first got together. I say this because a perfectly good relationship was ended on the account of me. I mean she didn't actually do anything wrong. But Matt and I belong together, we were made for each other, and we have been in love for the past two years at the time. And because of our own selfishness, an innocent bystander got hurt.
Then she made me mad. I guess I can simply attribute this to my jealousy. There is no other explanation for it. But the fact that Matt still talked to her enraged me. And after months of no conversation, no Jill in our lives. Here she is again with her little text message for no reason at all just attempting to get Matt's attention again. And I went off. And yes I'll agree that I stupid text message almost ended Matt and I. But it was the last straw, the one that broke the camels back.
So maybe the situation wasn't handled in the best manner. But from Friday until now Matt and I have successfully survived the most gruesome fight we've ever encountered. He has proved to me that he truly does love me more than anything else. And I have finally absolutely realized I could never ever get by without him.
I'm still sorry that we hurt Jill's feelings, or at least both of us perceive that we did. But because of that we each are with our soulmate and I wouldn't give that up for anything in this world.
On the 100th day before our wedding, every single doubt I had about marrying Matt was swept away. And that truly was an absolutely beautiful feeling.