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well here we go... ONE MORE TIME.... one more year of coach bulger.. one more year of mrs glisson saying "tuck in your shirt".... one more year of class yell battles and pep rallies and band competitions...one more year of jessica and kristi having weenie fights at the lunch table and yelling random comments and generally attracting attention to our table... one more year of bein unorganized in yearbook and scraping by on deadlines... one more year of everything we have all known for 12 years so far... one more time....
well i am bout to start placing bets on who is gonna hook up with the josh guy in my 4th block government class... alex and leslie are gonna have it out i think... ha. right now in my opinion they are dead even, leslie showed him where dr. andersons room was while flirting of course, and alex had flirting mode cranked up on high today in history... sorry alex that i randomly proclaimed that 2 guys in the room had touched your boobies while i was sitting behind the josh guy... oops! hehehehe
as for me, i was off in la la land today worrying about jonathan bein on the airplane. i love flying but when other pple fly it makes me nervous. and i miss him so bad its pitiful... cuz before i wasnt really that attached to him. and i kinda liked it that way cuz i felt safer, likei wasnt gonna get hurt. but we also werent that nice to each other and we werent that close. and now we have gotten a lot closer and we have been getting along like super well and i think i am getting pulled into that hole... it is scary as hell. usually when i get that feeling i run away. like i did with sean. so i have decided recently that its not exactly commitment that i am scared of.. its just the whole bein dependent on the other person.... like emoitionally dependent i mean. i dont think it really makes sense the way i am explaining it. but oh well i know what i mean. so i am pretty much okay if i if i dont have that deep emotional bond thingy goin on.. but i get scared when thats starts happening cuz it puts me at risk of being hurt... do ya'll get what i am saying at all??
well this is geting really long... sorry for boring yall i just havent written in a while. i really didnt expect this much to come out. oh well. you all love me and know how nuts i am sometimes.