I'm just sore...
Why do I have to be emotional and notice everything....Sometimes I wish I could just be oblivious to things. Today was rough...it was one of those days you wish you were anywhere but where you are...Today two of my fav patients passed away, I've known then for 10+ years...It broke my heart to get both phone calls. I also had a dicussion with my dad today...not about school or my future but about time. I wanted him to know that now as I approach graduation and the real world I would really love to spend some "real" time with him...it's weird our relationship has changed soo much it's not what it use to be. I can feel the years slipping away and I feel like one day I'm going to wake up and he's not going to be able to spend timne with me... He just went on about goals and hard work, totally missing the point...brick wall...The more I'm home the more I realize I dont belong so much anymore, at least the way things are right now...It was just soo sad...I was so tired by the end of the day that all I could do was just kinda let the tears roll down my cheeks cuz....really there's nothing I can do to change the way thing have happened it out of my control....
I went home and I got a letter in the mail, the moment I saw how my name was spelled and then saw the cover I just began to sob...it was like a bitter sweet reminder of everything and I when I opened it up I just couldn't stop crying...I had to hold the paper away so that my tears wouldn't ruin the writing/paper ect...it didnt matter becasue I couldnt read through the tears...when I finally calmed down I read the letter and ....u have no idea how I felt...i cant even begin to exsplain... it just makes you realize why the people that are your best friends...are your best friends and even beyond that there is no questioning that friendship, despite what others may do or say...
I think that the mailman is psychic...his timing is always on point or maybe it the amaizng friendships....Pain goes away it's what makes joy so wonderful.....I miss you all more than you know...<3
ps: this past weekend I went to nadhi wedding!!! OMG it was amazing...Congrats Mr.&Mrs. Mathew
I went home and I got a letter in the mail, the moment I saw how my name was spelled and then saw the cover I just began to sob...it was like a bitter sweet reminder of everything and I when I opened it up I just couldn't stop crying...I had to hold the paper away so that my tears wouldn't ruin the writing/paper ect...it didnt matter becasue I couldnt read through the tears...when I finally calmed down I read the letter and ....u have no idea how I felt...i cant even begin to exsplain... it just makes you realize why the people that are your best friends...are your best friends and even beyond that there is no questioning that friendship, despite what others may do or say...
I think that the mailman is psychic...his timing is always on point or maybe it the amaizng friendships....Pain goes away it's what makes joy so wonderful.....I miss you all more than you know...<3
ps: this past weekend I went to nadhi wedding!!! OMG it was amazing...Congrats Mr.&Mrs. Mathew